i need to get out of my own head and just let things be. it is what it is. things happen. let them. people say shit. so what. things get weird for a little while. it'll pass. time takes care of all ( Read more... )

i NEED to get out of my head.
once and for all.

so confused.

i shouldve just kept this love that was coming on to myself.
now i don't know what to do.

i need a savior.

or some love.

suddenly it all became so heart wrenchingly real.

this is such a different kind of pain.

this week has been numbing.
my friend from hs is dead. and i never saw it coming. it still hasn't hit me. i don't know if i even want it to really sink in. i'm going to her wake tonight. i don't want to see her like that.

on another note,
lately, my childhood feels like it was soo long ago.
this is depressing.

i found out one of my friends from hs was killed this weekend.

and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

and ever since i found out,
i can't get her out of my head.

im missing the friends i havent seen in so long.

so much that it aches.

NOV. 8TH....VAN HALEN....i will be in attendance

even with the wind in our face ( Read more... )

something about the real sudden shift into autumn....

always stirs things up inside me.

i wasn't expecting to be so emotionally affected by seeing him again.