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my tears shatter across the floor
and i want to feel human again
i want to be yours again
would it have been better
if i hadn't opened my mouth
if you couldn't have heard
those words spilling out
you say that you're happy
but even while you smile
i see the tears forming
in the corners of your eyes
okay so it didn't work like that. we were at work and alex was talking about worrying about losing me, and we got into a conversation of sex with other people. i felt pretty shitty when i told him i wanted to have sex with other people, like i shouldn't have told him. he said he was glad i was honest but i know we both felt terrible about it. me for even saying that kind of thing--i was just being honest--and him for worrying even more about losing him. but we talked some more after work and everything is better now.
lately i've been obsessive about getting my lip pierced. i said something about it to my mom and she said she'd prefer if i got a tattoo in a discreet location. i was like what what what WHAT?! if i was gonna get the piercing, i'd have to wait till my 17th birthday... hm. and both sound pretty appealing.. i wonder if there's a way i can get both. mwa ha ha.
i still have to do my portfolio for careers and do some biology junk. i have a test to do monday that i skipped out on on friday. ick. i had no freaking clue what it was over. oh, how i can't wait for my orthodontist appointment on tuesday.. especially since alex's car doesn't randomly short out on us anymore.
ps i love him. 4 rillz. he is just the best, ever ever ever.