theres something about this end of summer thing that makes me terribly depressed.  i thought i was gonna take it head on.  there is after all, so much to look forward to.  so its more like a buried grain of pure and unabated sadness.  and sometimes its the only thing i can pay any attention to.  but happy is still my thing.

summer has come to an end..unofficially.  mixed emotions doesnt even come close to explaining it.  its amazing how i take myself so seriously and not at the same time.  life and time and love just seem like a lot to handle but all things considered i think im doing alright.  i guess some people just confuse me endlessly but its probably fair ( Read more... )

Let me out of this place im out of place im in outerspace i just vanished without a trace
im going to a pretty place where the flowers grow, ill be back in an hour or so. 

oh this entry is way overdue.  ive put it off, partly because im never not inebriated and partly cause i wanted to do it right, which doesnt necessarily preclude an inebriated go at it but i havent been feeling up to it.  that being said, its not that i feel like i can do it all justice right now, but i had to get something down before time put any ( Read more... )

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i feel really crazy these days.  it does get a little hazy lately.  anyhow my neice turns 13 today.  i think thats pretty ridiculous, i think 13 is the last great year of the innocence, i guess its different for every one and definately depends on when you start high school but i feel like its the total cusp of kid to like adolecent or teenager or ( Read more... )

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even a stupid car accident could not harness the awesomeness of this weekend.  awesome day at the beach turned wrong early when this chick hit my poor car on the lip and split that shit wiiiiide open.  but it rebounded nicely with really enjoyable ocean and a pretty perfect amount of sun and then we went to the sickest party you could ever imagine ( Read more... )

its the freakin weekend baby

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