Sam, Katrina and Vicki came over last night and gave me a couple of Birthday cards...at 12:03 in the morning. That rocked. Other than that, there's a lot of shit I'm trying like hell not to think of, but I do...hell...I dream about it now, and I think that I need to figure out what the hell is going on. I'm a little lost at the moment, but I'll ( Read more... )

I thought I did it for the best...useless...useless

"To die by the hands of one's own people is hard. But the house is surrounded and I'm being charged with high treason." -Erwin Rommel.

It's not about victory anymore...just survival.

well...I guess I have to live my mistakes, and even though it had to be done...had to be said...I still feel like shit for it.
There are reasons for everything, but I've made my apologies...and it's time to move on. I feel fucking stupid.

On a lighter note...I finally heard from my gutter dyke...and I swear to god 2001 will never end.

I believe I've made a horrible mistake.

I'm tired...and I think that for a while I'm going to be a real asshole. For some reason making other people feel like shit makes me feel better when I'm like this. I hate this about myself...but at the moment it's just one more thing, so I might as well laugh at the sheep while I don't care. I don't anymore. FTW and may someone forgive me...

So, played a show, got reaaaaaal drunk, did all kinds of crazy shit, and managed to raise enough money to take care of Chik's traffic ticket...not bad, not bad...wish I could remember it ( Read more... )

well, this week has been really fucked up. I'm sitting here at my house and ready to pretty much give up. Seems that no one is having an easy time of it right now, and I wonder how long any of us can last. I wish I was strong enough, (rich enough, smart enough) to carry everyone through their troubles. It pisses me off that I'm not, so I feel ( Read more... )

"Speaking in tounges is supposed to be a special gift from God, but everyone in the Polk County Jail can do it." -Chik Waste

Through the darkness breaks the light,
through the light unending pain
deify the wretched ones,
till the darkness comes again