it's amazing how my attitude changes when it goes from anger to hurt. I don't hate him. at all. It makes me hurt more, but it makes me feel better about it too. I hate this is where we went, and this is what we've come to, but I don't hate him.
I refuse to become a cynic.bmyinspirationDecember 1 2010, 05:38:40 UTC
The devil could grab hold of me on the issue of love. I want it. I crave it. There is absolutely a longing in my heart to love someone with my whole self. And I am going to be great at it. But then the little insecurities sneak in.. what if I never get to find love? or what if love never comes looking for me? What if I spend my whole life with arms open wide, ready to love the world, only to find that no one wants to come to my embrace? How unfulfilled and unsatisfied will I be? Insecurities like these make me want to retreat. To roll over and not have hope for the future, for the future God has PROMISED me, the future God has PLANNED for me. Despite being down-troden and broken hearted, I must keep my faith. <3
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I don't hate him.
at all.
It makes me hurt more, but it makes me feel better about it too.
I hate this is where we went, and this is what we've come to, but I don't hate him.
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I want it. I crave it. There is absolutely a longing in my heart to love someone with my whole self.
And I am going to be great at it.
But then the little insecurities sneak in.. what if I never get to find love? or what if love never comes looking for me?
What if I spend my whole life with arms open wide, ready to love the world, only to find that no one wants to come to my embrace?
How unfulfilled and unsatisfied will I be?
Insecurities like these make me want to retreat. To roll over and not have hope for the future, for the future God has PROMISED me, the future God has PLANNED for me.
Despite being down-troden and broken hearted, I must keep my faith.
<3
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