Cancer wise, she's clean. Been clean for almost two years now. :)
I'll never forget the day she whipped her boob out at me to ask me how her scar looked. You don't expect to walk into the house and have your mom flashing boobies everywhere!
It is a tough tough situation. I thanked God and every supreme being that I was done with college before the diagnosis. I don't think I could've dealt with being in Pennsylvania knowing what was happening up here. And I understand wanting your sister back, but not for those reasons. I had many of thoughts just like that when my sister moved to Nevada and we had bad crap going on here and there.
My mom has (had) the boob cancer, so I know exactly how you feel. I have been right where you are.
The waiting is the hardest part. The waiting and not knowing. All you can do is wait for the results of the biopsy.
I won't bore you with my mother's tale, but I will say this. She had her lumps removed, she went through radiation and she's been cancer free for over a year.
Hang in there. Both you and she should seek out support groups - try http://www.breastcancer.org (and not just cause they are my client) -- my mother loves them.
You can't do anything this week. I know this sounds impossible... but just try not to think about it. You will only send yourself into a tailspin. There is nothing to be done this week. You cannot change anything.
I know how much the waiting sucks, from a personal standpoint. I don't know if I told you (or anyone) this, but I found a lump in my breast back in '99. It was the scariest thing I think I've ever had to deal with. I had the whole mammogram and everything - those hurt, BTW, but worth it!! Anyway, they did a lumpectomy - removed the lump - and discovered it was a fibroid adenoma (basically a hard piece of fat). It was about the size of one of those bouncy super balls. I have a scar, which *I* can see clearly, but anyone else might have to look hard to find it when I'm wearing a bikini.
My 80-something year old grandmother just recently had radiation treatment for cancer that they luckily detected early. Cancer-wise, she's fine - she just has a myriad of other health issues that concern me now.
But my thinking right now is, if my grammy can get through it, anyone can!! I'll be keeping your mommy in my thoughts.
Holy shit! You never tld me that! :( I'm glad you were alright!!
My mom said that she asked the doctor the worst case scenario and she said that as far as she (the dr) can tell just by feeling and seeing the xrays and stuff, worst case would be a lumpectomy and radiation. So scary! :(
But really, I m thinking the worst and the rest of this week will be hell until we know.
Thanks for the hugs and positive stories! I need them! :)
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It is scary. I know what you're going through, and sadly I don't think there is anything I can say to make it easier.
I hope you get better results than we got 4 years ago. My thoughts are going out to you!
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I have a tendancy to overeact so hopefully that's what I'm doing. Except my sister's doing it, too.
She lives in Virginia now and told her boss today that if the reluts come back bad, she's giving her 2 weeks notice and moving back home.
As much as I'd like her back in New England, I hope she doesn't have to move back home.
Damn, this really sucks though! :(
You're mom's okay though, right??
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I'll never forget the day she whipped her boob out at me to ask me how her scar looked. You don't expect to walk into the house and have your mom flashing boobies everywhere!
It is a tough tough situation. I thanked God and every supreme being that I was done with college before the diagnosis. I don't think I could've dealt with being in Pennsylvania knowing what was happening up here. And I understand wanting your sister back, but not for those reasons. I had many of thoughts just like that when my sister moved to Nevada and we had bad crap going on here and there.
*hugs*
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With my mom, I wouldn't be surprised if she asked me to check out her scar! lol My mom's nuts like that.
Hopefully, I can look back on today and laugh that I worried so damn much for no reason. I'm not emotionally strong enough to deal with it otherwise.
*hugs* Thanks again Steph. :)
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xoxo,
Mare
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That means a lot. :)
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My mom has (had) the boob cancer, so I know exactly how you feel. I have been right where you are.
The waiting is the hardest part. The waiting and not knowing. All you can do is wait for the results of the biopsy.
I won't bore you with my mother's tale, but I will say this. She had her lumps removed, she went through radiation and she's been cancer free for over a year.
Hang in there. Both you and she should seek out support groups - try http://www.breastcancer.org (and not just cause they are my client) -- my mother loves them.
Let me know if you want to chat.
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You're right - the waiting is so hard. THis week will be hell. I have a constant feeling of wanting to puke. :(
Thanks for the link to that site. I will go look at it and hopefully NOT need it! ;)
Thanks for the kind words - they are muchly appreciated right now!
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Hang in there. Let me know if you need anything.
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Every so often my mind wanders there and I get a terrible feeling in my tummy.
But I am optiistic for Fridays news. Yes. I am optimistic!
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I know how much the waiting sucks, from a personal standpoint. I don't know if I told you (or anyone) this, but I found a lump in my breast back in '99. It was the scariest thing I think I've ever had to deal with. I had the whole mammogram and everything - those hurt, BTW, but worth it!! Anyway, they did a lumpectomy - removed the lump - and discovered it was a fibroid adenoma (basically a hard piece of fat). It was about the size of one of those bouncy super balls. I have a scar, which *I* can see clearly, but anyone else might have to look hard to find it when I'm wearing a bikini.
My 80-something year old grandmother just recently had radiation treatment for cancer that they luckily detected early. Cancer-wise, she's fine - she just has a myriad of other health issues that concern me now.
But my thinking right now is, if my grammy can get through it, anyone can!! I'll be keeping your mommy in my thoughts.
*SUPER MEGA HUGS*
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My mom said that she asked the doctor the worst case scenario and she said that as far as she (the dr) can tell just by feeling and seeing the xrays and stuff, worst case would be a lumpectomy and radiation. So scary! :(
But really, I m thinking the worst and the rest of this week will be hell until we know.
Thanks for the hugs and positive stories! I need them! :)
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