its a little hard for me to recognize you anymore. everything seems split right down the middle. their are two sides of everything. the side i know very well and love, and the dark side that im not really sure is the real. this is true for everything lately, not just the people i think i know. that dark side from my perception seems to be the ( Read more... )

i dont usually write like this in live journal. i usually save it for my written journal, and i probably will write it there too, but i felt i needed to share this. it will be long. but please read ( Read more... )

i miss ( Read more... )

so i will be getting nice gifts this year but i wont be giving nice gifts this year. marilee decides to go skiing and leave me high and dry during this holiday season. no hours. well, i have hours, but not many at all. shes giving me a week off. its okay. i understand where she's coming from because to her selfish self i have no bills, no ( Read more... )

so i guess its good that the biggest news is that the Fox chief thinks that this season's Joe Millionaire was greedy and that The Bachelor took over Wednesday's ratings. right? but somehow i feel more stupid after even reading just the headlines. ah well ( Read more... )

i have deleted some of you from my friends list simply because i dont know the people that i erased. dont be offended.

i have the day off tomorrow. finally. i am going to do what i want to do. i dont have anywhere that i have to be and i dont have to work. and thats fine. im going to sleep in. if i feel like it im going to go to the bank. i am going to sit outside and read. and then i am going to have lunch with my mom. and im going to be lazy and i am not ( Read more... )

why am i updating? no one reads this shit. im bored. i just spent a minute watching bill sleep. he's awesome. im in a good, energetic mood and have nothing to expend my energy on. i just wrote a long email that i'll never send because its dramatic. when will the drama end. i feel very poetic right now yet i have nothing to say. new cell ( Read more... )

for those of you who didnt know...i AM marilee buckley's slave ( Read more... )

this past weekend bill and i escaped to tampa and went to busch gardens. where i rode my first roller coaster...the python. i have been told that this is the pussy roller coaster and that kumba is the best...or one of the best. but i liked the pussy one because its just that....a pussy, like me. it scared the shit out of me and i wasnt able to ( Read more... )