A real live honest to goodness entry...
Well seeing as how it has been a while since I have updated my life, I guess now is as good a time as any. God has it really been almost a month since I let fly the feelings and thoughts in my head. I guess that explains why I am so congested in the mind. Here goes then...
Well to start with, I am still unemployed, but it is not wieghing on my mind as much as I thought it would be, don't get me wrong I do wish I was working, but I am in a holding pattern with the Casino at the moment, not much I can do till they let me know about my licensing, I can call and bug, you know the ol' saying the squeaky wheel gets the grease and all that, but also a watched pot never boils. I have really enjoyed spending the days with my Son though, Ryne (pronounced RHINE) is really getting to be a monster in a good way, he loves his dad bunches, we get to play outside, wrestle on the bed, boy can he sell a hit, and he loves his movies, I am really looking forward to seeing how he takes to the notion of home/unschooling. For those that don't know, I am only planning on going back to work for like 3 years or so, just to get the finances in order, Ryne will be 5 or so, and then I am going to be a SAHD/homeschooler, so to speak. But the need for money is wearing on Aimee, so was near tears yesterday, because of a simple mistake, that hell I am sure a lot of people have made, forgot about an automatic credit that comes out, and miscalculated the amount of money we had. But that was fixed easily. I hate seeing her that way, and wish there was more I could have done to show her my support.
In regards to finances, there are a few reasons why I am only planning on 3 years, 1. Aimee makes good money, plus she is due for a raise, we can live on what she makes now, and mainly my jobs have only been to keep us in health insurance, and spending money, and her job has some good fringe benefits, i.e. concert tix/ free cd's. 2. I am starting to see that maybe I was meant to be a house husband, I mean I love work, but would much rather just sit around and be with my son more, does that make be a bad MAN, god I hope not, I still gt the idea in my head that the man is the one who brings home the money and put food on the table, you would think that with the relative openmindedness I have in the rest of my life, that this would have been worked out long ago, and I am doing better at it, just every now and then it rears its ugly head back in, I love the music of the fifties, I don't live in the fifties. 3. I am really vibing on the possibilty of moving in 3 years... selling this place and just packing up and settling down else where. Aimee is doing the research, and for some odd reason she thinks I need to move back to San Diego. Which is false, I liked it there yeah, but there is nothing there for me, the only family I had there is in AZ now, so what would be the point, other then the weather, and the water being right there. ok and the people who are more like us as well, but it be be starting over for me as well, so lets just move on. The other area she is looking into is Ashville, NC, Land is cheap, and you can get a lot for a little, thinking of maybe a double wide mobile or a small house for the money we spent on this we could have 10 times the land, and a bigger house as well, hum do the math, what do you think I may want to do.
So you ask, just how have I been keeping myself from going crazy stuck in the house all the time... Well to tell the truth I haven't been, stuck in the house that is. While doing a standard yahoo search for either a local baseball or softball league that I could join I found a pro-wiffleball league, and am actually palying whiffle ball, granted I am not getting paid for it, so it might not actually qualify as a professional league, but there are rules and 7 teams that are all vieing for a spot in the season ending playoffs, as well as an all-star game, and its is very competitive. We have People that come from Meridan to play every Sat/Sun and others that come down from MA as well, so as you can see I was surprised that they even had anything like this around here at all. The league is run out of a field in Voluntown, that a guy actually built in his back yard, it is a replica of Fenway, Green Monster and all. I will see what I can do about getting some photos of the field and me in action soon I hope. I am an ok player, I was actually picked up off of the free agent list and have been starting for the last 3 weeks, Ijust hope I can keep it up, I am a great defensive player, need to work on my bat skills a little though, I am 3 for 18 on the year, with only 2 RBI's, and I need to start pitching off a mound again, so that I don't get dropped by my team, we are the last team left in the league with an undeafeted record, so they are all gunning for us now. PLus we have a double header coming up this w/e, against a team I have played once before, I was on a different team during week 3 then I was in week 2 and 4. Hard to explain. I showed up for the first time in wk 2, played on a team that was short handed... but the rules stated I needed to be picked up by a team after that day, and even though they wanted me their spot for picking up players was just after another team that did get me, I playd one week for them, and they decided to stay with their origanl 3, so I was dropped, and was then picked up by the first team again. I just need to prove my worth to stay on this team, I only got a 2 wk contract so to speak, I was picked up to cover for a player on the DL. and after this week they are capable of playing again, but my currant teamis thinking of dropping someone else, so I might luck out ad get to stay, but they need pitching help. I have not done any ince High School, when I blew out my shoulder, so I am shot for speed, but hopefully I can get that ball to whiffle all over the place.
I have also come to see just how many people actually read my journal, and who just skims through. I added a counter to my info page just to keep track of new people who look at my profile and in 3 weeks all I had was 40 new people look, which is bad cause I update that thing like every week, and have 23 communities I am in, as well as 16 mutual friends, and 34 people on my frined list, while Aimee in like 2 weeks less time has gotten 80. Do women just naturally get more views, I noticed it with PMM as well, I added a new post to the updated member list a while back, got a few new views, but not one reply to my post, add comparing Aimees views to mine again, me 230, her 734. Not a good way to make me feel better looking at those numbers huh. But that is a rant for another time, what I wanna talk about for a min is the opening part of a possible story/novel I put up 2 weeks ago. I got not one comment, I also posted it to a few different clubs and got a total of 2 replies. which was good that I got at least that, but damn, if you thought it sux, just let me know... I am a big boy I can handle critism, I pormise not to hunt people down with a chainsaw.
But enough of that... did anyone notice that my posts seemed to be aimed at the readers and not me, does anyone else have this problem as well. I like to write this for me, but it seems to be a way for me to get people interaction that I may be missing, I mean I have each and everyway to get ahold of me in my profile, is that a cry for help, love, understanding, friendship, hell even a person to talk to, all I have during the day is a 2 y/o and even though he is a smart guy with many words, you can only go so far with the conversation before he gets frazzled. For the love of the anti-christ and all things unholy, someone speak to me in more then 1 slyable (sp?)
Well I really can go on and on can't I, and seeing as how it is now 2:42 am, I may be needing to head off to bed. And one of these days I may actually remember how to do those LJ cuts and not have to go to the FAQ page each time and cut and paste. LOL
Well to start with, I am still unemployed, but it is not wieghing on my mind as much as I thought it would be, don't get me wrong I do wish I was working, but I am in a holding pattern with the Casino at the moment, not much I can do till they let me know about my licensing, I can call and bug, you know the ol' saying the squeaky wheel gets the grease and all that, but also a watched pot never boils. I have really enjoyed spending the days with my Son though, Ryne (pronounced RHINE) is really getting to be a monster in a good way, he loves his dad bunches, we get to play outside, wrestle on the bed, boy can he sell a hit, and he loves his movies, I am really looking forward to seeing how he takes to the notion of home/unschooling. For those that don't know, I am only planning on going back to work for like 3 years or so, just to get the finances in order, Ryne will be 5 or so, and then I am going to be a SAHD/homeschooler, so to speak. But the need for money is wearing on Aimee, so was near tears yesterday, because of a simple mistake, that hell I am sure a lot of people have made, forgot about an automatic credit that comes out, and miscalculated the amount of money we had. But that was fixed easily. I hate seeing her that way, and wish there was more I could have done to show her my support.
In regards to finances, there are a few reasons why I am only planning on 3 years, 1. Aimee makes good money, plus she is due for a raise, we can live on what she makes now, and mainly my jobs have only been to keep us in health insurance, and spending money, and her job has some good fringe benefits, i.e. concert tix/ free cd's. 2. I am starting to see that maybe I was meant to be a house husband, I mean I love work, but would much rather just sit around and be with my son more, does that make be a bad MAN, god I hope not, I still gt the idea in my head that the man is the one who brings home the money and put food on the table, you would think that with the relative openmindedness I have in the rest of my life, that this would have been worked out long ago, and I am doing better at it, just every now and then it rears its ugly head back in, I love the music of the fifties, I don't live in the fifties. 3. I am really vibing on the possibilty of moving in 3 years... selling this place and just packing up and settling down else where. Aimee is doing the research, and for some odd reason she thinks I need to move back to San Diego. Which is false, I liked it there yeah, but there is nothing there for me, the only family I had there is in AZ now, so what would be the point, other then the weather, and the water being right there. ok and the people who are more like us as well, but it be be starting over for me as well, so lets just move on. The other area she is looking into is Ashville, NC, Land is cheap, and you can get a lot for a little, thinking of maybe a double wide mobile or a small house for the money we spent on this we could have 10 times the land, and a bigger house as well, hum do the math, what do you think I may want to do.
So you ask, just how have I been keeping myself from going crazy stuck in the house all the time... Well to tell the truth I haven't been, stuck in the house that is. While doing a standard yahoo search for either a local baseball or softball league that I could join I found a pro-wiffleball league, and am actually palying whiffle ball, granted I am not getting paid for it, so it might not actually qualify as a professional league, but there are rules and 7 teams that are all vieing for a spot in the season ending playoffs, as well as an all-star game, and its is very competitive. We have People that come from Meridan to play every Sat/Sun and others that come down from MA as well, so as you can see I was surprised that they even had anything like this around here at all. The league is run out of a field in Voluntown, that a guy actually built in his back yard, it is a replica of Fenway, Green Monster and all. I will see what I can do about getting some photos of the field and me in action soon I hope. I am an ok player, I was actually picked up off of the free agent list and have been starting for the last 3 weeks, Ijust hope I can keep it up, I am a great defensive player, need to work on my bat skills a little though, I am 3 for 18 on the year, with only 2 RBI's, and I need to start pitching off a mound again, so that I don't get dropped by my team, we are the last team left in the league with an undeafeted record, so they are all gunning for us now. PLus we have a double header coming up this w/e, against a team I have played once before, I was on a different team during week 3 then I was in week 2 and 4. Hard to explain. I showed up for the first time in wk 2, played on a team that was short handed... but the rules stated I needed to be picked up by a team after that day, and even though they wanted me their spot for picking up players was just after another team that did get me, I playd one week for them, and they decided to stay with their origanl 3, so I was dropped, and was then picked up by the first team again. I just need to prove my worth to stay on this team, I only got a 2 wk contract so to speak, I was picked up to cover for a player on the DL. and after this week they are capable of playing again, but my currant teamis thinking of dropping someone else, so I might luck out ad get to stay, but they need pitching help. I have not done any ince High School, when I blew out my shoulder, so I am shot for speed, but hopefully I can get that ball to whiffle all over the place.
I have also come to see just how many people actually read my journal, and who just skims through. I added a counter to my info page just to keep track of new people who look at my profile and in 3 weeks all I had was 40 new people look, which is bad cause I update that thing like every week, and have 23 communities I am in, as well as 16 mutual friends, and 34 people on my frined list, while Aimee in like 2 weeks less time has gotten 80. Do women just naturally get more views, I noticed it with PMM as well, I added a new post to the updated member list a while back, got a few new views, but not one reply to my post, add comparing Aimees views to mine again, me 230, her 734. Not a good way to make me feel better looking at those numbers huh. But that is a rant for another time, what I wanna talk about for a min is the opening part of a possible story/novel I put up 2 weeks ago. I got not one comment, I also posted it to a few different clubs and got a total of 2 replies. which was good that I got at least that, but damn, if you thought it sux, just let me know... I am a big boy I can handle critism, I pormise not to hunt people down with a chainsaw.
But enough of that... did anyone notice that my posts seemed to be aimed at the readers and not me, does anyone else have this problem as well. I like to write this for me, but it seems to be a way for me to get people interaction that I may be missing, I mean I have each and everyway to get ahold of me in my profile, is that a cry for help, love, understanding, friendship, hell even a person to talk to, all I have during the day is a 2 y/o and even though he is a smart guy with many words, you can only go so far with the conversation before he gets frazzled. For the love of the anti-christ and all things unholy, someone speak to me in more then 1 slyable (sp?)
Well I really can go on and on can't I, and seeing as how it is now 2:42 am, I may be needing to head off to bed. And one of these days I may actually remember how to do those LJ cuts and not have to go to the FAQ page each time and cut and paste. LOL