angsty? shouldn't be

[bobo_hewitt]

ANGST (and perhaps a bit of a cold)

Other than that, life is actually being really good to me. The weather has been great for the past couple days, and I've been walking home from school which is really fun. The concert went really well (well, considering), and school continues to be almost ideally arranged for me. Okay, pointless entry. Oh well.

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[henryinchina]

I used to feel like I had to make every entry monumental. Oh wait, I still feel that way. But I shouldn't.
Speaking of "shoulds" and "shouldn'ts", be careful about explaining away your feelings. Even if you "should" be feeling good, if you're not, that means some part of you has a good reason not to be. And telling yourself "I'm not listening to that part because I SHOULD be happy" is not going to help you figure out why it's not happy.
I have no idea if this is actually happening, but it's something I've been thinking about and noticing a lot recently. Even so, I've been enjoying the weather, your concert WAS excellent, and I'm glad that you've arranged school ideally.
See? I found some point in that.

[bobo_hewitt]

You're right, actually. The thing is I think too much about a lot of my emotions rather than realizing that the world isn't the same as the one in my head, and sometimes reconciling the two creates emotional "earthquakes" (to carry an analogy too far).

That said, I really am more happy than not. Almost all of the angst has gone away with a simple realization, and life is once again good (but still not too pointless). And livejournal can be a little trivial, right?

[henryinchina]

Kallie you need to see What the Bleep!!!!!

~Jamie

[bobo_hewitt]

You're right! I really want to too, it sounds really interesting. Except maybe around spring break or whenever my life is not being eaten by midterms.