wow, so it looks like i took a big step, and did something that, well.. i don't know. maybe i'll regret. who knows? I mean it was a right choice, right? breaking that frienship off, right? I was getting shit out of it.. just sleepless nights, and tears... right? It IS fucked up, that the only time he would actually want to talk to me was when no ( Read more... )

yeah. thanks for calling. lets see when this one will end.

you know what sucked about waking up this morning?

...knowing that everything that happened yesterday happened for real...

and that it wasn't true.

I'm here at Christy's house, and it was such a nice weekend... I looked through a box of all of our old memories, and it was really nice remembering all of the things her and I experienced together in our childhood... I don't think I could have imagined a better person to experience that time with... even though a lot of my childhood sucked major ( Read more... )

how would my life have been if i were to have stayed with alex? If I were to have ignored the problems we had deep down and kept dating him right before school started? Would the same people be n the retro crew as they are now. No, there wouldnt, come to think of it. I'd have not started hanging out with Gabi, in turn not hanging out with Jazz, in ( Read more... )

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. ( Read more... )

well, I'm sitting here at home, and I got up and left, cause my mom is working late everyday this week, and that comforts me. I can stay home and chill out, cause I hate not doing that... so today, I got up from my bed and I was restless.. I was like, wtf should I do? So i put on my jeans (yes, venturing 'round my house in underwear and a shirt... ( Read more... )

Well, you know those times, you're with your friends, and everything seems awesome? Even if you are discussing BAD things that have been fuckin with your mind? Welll, that's how stuff is when I go out with Gabi and Daisy... I mean, we always find ourselves walking a hell of a distance to get to a restaraunt and eating there, and paying our own ( Read more... )

wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeelllllllllll.
hello people who read this, the few of you who do. I'm writing this to say good bye... I don't know to what yet, but good bye. I have to end something, and I don't know what it's going to be yet.

Actually I'm thinking of it right now, but it's too scary.

Some of you are in for a big surprise if I say goodbye to this

I'm up at ... 1:10 in the morning.. dreaming, not of the future. but of the past.