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[bojo427]

October 20th, I can hardly stand to sit here. The urge to allow my mind to explode in a flurry of thoughts is overpowering- things I can only reconcile by pacing endless tracks back and forth, down the hall and through the living room. And I do, after each line I get up and take that path, I don't know why. I'll stop at some point and close the

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[tacitanomaly]

Oh sweetie... my god... I have three brothers and I know how much they are a part of your life and who you become... what is happening in your family broke my heart... all I can say is he is very lucky to have a sister like you and to be careful....~big hugs~ and my heart goes out to you... I will keep thoughts of strength for you, Bill and your family.

[tacitanomaly]

It has been difficult, and I thank you for the thoughts of strength!

[ashevillain]

That was a very somber and heartbreaking story.. I'm sorry for the pain you have endured.. It's never easy watching someone you love be controlled by things in their mind they can't control themselves. Dementia is a stage of Alzheimer's, and I have sat and watched and listened to my grandmother as she sang, talked to spirits, rocked, and screamed..

It has always seemed to me that people with schizophrenia are not of this world.. they are here, but they are not. I knew someone whose mother was schizophrenic... so I have seen it before.. but only at a distance.. I don't claim to be an expert on it. I know that it shows up at a certain age.. and that nicotine, oddly, helps to somewhat control it.

(((Hugs))) Love and peace to you..

[bojo427]

Thank you for your kindness. I really appreciate it.