&& waiting is all that I can do, until you find your way back to me...
I was just listening to Michelle Branch (reliving my MB obsession days), and I realized how many lines from her songs actually apply to my life right now...
I'd be out of line telling you, "leave her"
So I lie lonely surrounded by you
Lately I can't be happy for no one
They think I need some time to myself
I try to smile but I can't remember
And I know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
And I wanted to be giving you everything that she's not giving
And I wanted to see
'Cause I didn't believe what i'd been hearing
You turned out to be more than I bargained for
And I can tell that you need to get away
forgive me if I admit that I'd love to love you
We both realized it way too late
Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
I used to get away with so much
Now I can't get away
I even thought that it was simple
To say the things I wanted to say
I'm finding my way back to you
And everything I used to be
And waiting is all that I can do
Until you find your way back to me
What if I said what I was thinking?
What if that says too much?
When everybody's got a reason
I feel like giving up
I'm packing my bags 'cause I don't wanna be
The only one who's drowning in their misery
And I'll take that chance 'cause I just wanna breathe
And I won't look back and wonder how it's supposed to be
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you
One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home
Did I make you nervous?
Did I ask for too much?
Was I not deserving one second of your touch?
Something 'bout the way you looked at me
Made me think for a moment,
That maybe we were meant to be
There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
You're such a part of me
But I just pulled away
Well, I'm not the same girl
you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part of something strong and true
But I was scared and left it all behind
Though it looks as if it's over
I'm still not over you
'Cause I still love you like I did before
I know for sure that you still feel the same way I do
If only she knew
Whoa
I know she loves you and I can't interfere
So I'll just have to sit back and watch my world disappear
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I'd be out of line telling you, "leave her"
So I lie lonely surrounded by you
Lately I can't be happy for no one
They think I need some time to myself
I try to smile but I can't remember
And I know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
And I wanted to be giving you everything that she's not giving
And I wanted to see
'Cause I didn't believe what i'd been hearing
You turned out to be more than I bargained for
And I can tell that you need to get away
forgive me if I admit that I'd love to love you
We both realized it way too late
Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
I used to get away with so much
Now I can't get away
I even thought that it was simple
To say the things I wanted to say
I'm finding my way back to you
And everything I used to be
And waiting is all that I can do
Until you find your way back to me
What if I said what I was thinking?
What if that says too much?
When everybody's got a reason
I feel like giving up
I'm packing my bags 'cause I don't wanna be
The only one who's drowning in their misery
And I'll take that chance 'cause I just wanna breathe
And I won't look back and wonder how it's supposed to be
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you
One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home
Did I make you nervous?
Did I ask for too much?
Was I not deserving one second of your touch?
Something 'bout the way you looked at me
Made me think for a moment,
That maybe we were meant to be
There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
You're such a part of me
But I just pulled away
Well, I'm not the same girl
you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part of something strong and true
But I was scared and left it all behind
Though it looks as if it's over
I'm still not over you
'Cause I still love you like I did before
I know for sure that you still feel the same way I do
If only she knew
Whoa
I know she loves you and I can't interfere
So I'll just have to sit back and watch my world disappear
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time