state of the union. why not!
Jesse St. James [boldstarring]
IN CHARACTER
JESSE LOVES/HATES CAMP.
It's a very complicated relationship. Why he hates it is easier! For him, control is everything. He's so used to having control of any given situation and being able to manipulate people's perception of him, and camp messes with that completely. He's also felt helpless more times in the past four or five months than he'd ever really like to in his entire life. It's difficult for him because he's an independant sort; he's used to standing on his own and not giving two shits about the people that get knocked over in order for him to succeed! He'll act and put on a front to make people like him and then just roll from there.
Camp is different in that 1) he can't do that because he knows it'll bite him in the ass and 2) ... he doesn't really want to at this point. I mean, yes, if it came to getting brutally maimed or selling someone out that wasn't all that close to him (read: one of three people), Jesse would do it in a heartbeat. He's not that good of a person! But he has been growing as a person. He's still selfish and inconsiderate and completely full of himself, but he's mellowed. He's actually starting to think about other people as well. It's something!
And currently, his personal life is a wreck! He's completely, madly, and stupid-teenager-ly in love with Rachel. He doesn't want to act on this because it would hurt Finn, his best friend and someone he also is in love with, albeit super platonically. These are both feelings he's never had before! They are driving him up the wall. He was pretty close to a massive meltdown before deaging and counseling, but talking with people has helped him sort through some of it and at least be okay with it. Jesse's starting to not act as much or put on a front, which is ... progress! Mostly.
OUT OF CHARACTER
I do worry sometimes with Jesse, because so much re: him is, well, up to interpretation, and it's ridiculously hard to stay consistent when canon isn't even consistent. But! Eh. I roll with whatever. I also felt a lot better when I went to rewatch for screencaps since ... canon is horribly inconsistent. Thanks, writers! I'm just rolling with what feels right at this point. I love two-faced characters, and I love them even more with a side of conflict. Jesse is interesting to me! He has this divide where there's Jesse St. James, the super-confident male lead of Vocal Adrenaline who isn't intimidated by anything, is totally awesome, and you should love him for realz! And then there's just plain Jesse, who is still figuring out exactly who he actually is and what he wants! He knows himself, but he doesn't.
idk. I love him. Love. He's the first character of mine to hit 10k (or will soon, anyway) since ... Sakuraba back in 2006. Even when I reapped Robert, he did maybe 9k throughout his entire second run. Jesse's a keeper, I love playing him to pieces, the end. And on the subject of love, I would love for more New Directions-types to app in the coming months! Since that could be incredibly interesting in terms of interactions and whatnot. Or a Shelby! Or, shit, you guys, Cheyenne Jackson is going to be the new Vocal Adrenaline coach this season. There are so many possibilities! mostly, I want a Shelby. someone app her. .-.
desire to play ★★★★★★★★★★
odds of dropping ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Cold dead hands, etc. I never say never because, well, I dropped Robert (twice!), and I know I will eventually get bored, but goddamn, I love this stupid divo. He makes me so happy and his canon is so dumb and I love it anyway and his actor is like this never-ending source of hilarity. It's awesome. He's one of the most versatile characters I've played in ages, and it's great. I happily paid for him through 2010, and barring any unforeseen circumstances, will probably cover him through 2011 come the holidays.
Miles Edgeworth [lineoflogic]
IN CHARACTER
He's compiling information on the stuff that's been going down in camp! And has generally been around, but keeping to himself. He's aware that Apollo has returned, and he needs to reconvene with Kay soon-ish. Mostly, Edgeworth is just doin' his thing.
OUT OF CHARACTER
AND THEN WE HAVE EDGEWORTH. :|;; I feel bad re: him! On the one hand, when I do play him, I enjoy it! I love his canon, Ace Attorney: Investigations made me love him all over again, and he's fun. And I love my castmates to pieces. On the other hand, my drive to play him is nill because I feel like I developed him the last time I played him and currently, there doesn't seem to be any potential for him to grow any further? So he's doing his thing and it's fun, but it gets repetitive and I get bored and distracted easily. ... hahaha, note how much shorter this whole section is.
desire to play ★★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
odds of dropping ★★★★★★★★☆☆
I'm hanging onto him for a bit longer because I told myself I'd wait until Kay came back from her extended hiatus! And when I do play him, it's fun! That aside, I'd feel a little strange having just one character - it's nice to have a backburner and have other options re: playing! But if I app again and the character clicks for me, I think Edgeworth would probably get the drop. :|a
THE PLAYER
SO UM. Back in April, I felt like I was failing at RP in general, wasn't really interested in it anymore, and had seriously contemplated dropping completely. And then I apped Jesse and ha ha ha. I want to app again! I have plans for a couple apps, but I am a little hesitant about doing that because Jesse eats up a lot of my RP time! And I love it. So I'm trying not to app unless I know I'd be interested in actually, uh, playing that character. That aside, while I have the free time now, I'm also going to start job hunting in full force soon (read: as soon as I stop being a wuss), which means my schedule will be a-changin'. One super primary and one backburner are probably all I should really have at this point in time. I haven't apped in five months, basically. Thaaaat's weird for me!
... but knowing me, I'll probably app again before the end of the year and see how it goes with that. Erm.