yippie i love myself that such sarcasm
for those who wish to know of the torments of this night
mardox666 (10:00:04 PM): imma kill yahoo
puddlebunnys (10:00:08 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:00:08 PM): aw
mardox666 (10:00:10 PM): my yahoo froze
puddlebunnys (10:00:10 PM): its ok
puddlebunnys (10:00:18 PM): at least i got to see you today
puddlebunnys (10:00:19 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:00:26 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:00:32 PM): :D :D
puddlebunnys (10:00:37 PM): this song is great
puddlebunnys (10:00:38 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:00:46 PM): he's got more
puddlebunnys (10:01:03 PM): im going to have to download some tonight
mardox666 (10:01:12 PM): i've got a bunch
puddlebunnys (10:01:40 PM): well i could just put them on my ipod when i came over
puddlebunnys (10:01:42 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:01:46 PM): yeah
puddlebunnys (10:02:40 PM): im going to install windows vista tonight :P
mardox666 (10:03:52 PM): ok
puddlebunnys (10:04:42 PM): some one is looking sexy tonight
mardox666 (10:04:56 PM): not really
puddlebunnys (10:05:00 PM): lier
puddlebunnys (10:05:01 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:05:09 PM): i see someone in the bed
puddlebunnys (10:05:13 PM): show time?
puddlebunnys (10:05:14 PM): jk
puddlebunnys (10:05:15 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:05:18 PM): unless your're talking about yourself
puddlebunnys (10:05:24 PM): what ever
puddlebunnys (10:05:39 PM): im as ugly as shit tonight
mardox666 (10:06:06 PM): no you're not
puddlebunnys (10:06:18 PM): ok i think we need a close up
puddlebunnys (10:06:48 PM): and you lovely as ever
puddlebunnys (10:06:52 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:06:54 PM): thanks
mardox666 (10:07:12 PM): i don't want to talk to this other person
puddlebunnys (10:07:33 PM): what person????
puddlebunnys (10:07:36 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:07:38 PM): nice hate
mardox666 (10:07:40 PM): some guy named andy
puddlebunnys (10:07:48 PM): oh?
puddlebunnys (10:07:49 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:08:36 PM): you and that damn drink
puddlebunnys (10:08:37 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:08:52 PM): rotfl
mardox666 (10:08:58 PM): it's damn tasty though
puddlebunnys (10:09:05 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:09:10 PM): but i think i might know something tastier
puddlebunnys (10:09:25 PM): Oh?
puddlebunnys (10:09:28 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:09:31 PM): like :P
mardox666 (10:10:03 PM): you'll just have to wait and find out
mardox666 (10:10:12 PM): how the hell am i considered a stud
mardox666 (10:10:18 PM): i have no muscle definition
puddlebunnys (10:10:28 PM): oh shut up
puddlebunnys (10:10:30 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:11:00 PM): i'm serious studs have muscle definition
puddlebunnys (10:11:02 PM): if i had the guts to drag you ass last night just to tell you that you had one i would have
puddlebunnys (10:11:24 PM): grab*
puddlebunnys (10:11:25 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:11:37 PM): i wsa like what he saying
puddlebunnys (10:11:43 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:11:47 PM): but i did bite you
puddlebunnys (10:11:49 PM): grrrr
puddlebunnys (10:12:01 PM): i just had to do that
mardox666 (10:12:04 PM): took me by surprise you should have seen my face
puddlebunnys (10:12:09 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:12:12 PM): good or bad?
puddlebunnys (10:12:23 PM): haha
mardox666 (10:12:24 PM): good really good
puddlebunnys (10:12:34 PM): well im happy you liked it
puddlebunnys (10:12:42 PM): want me to do it again :P
puddlebunnys (10:12:45 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:12:49 PM): be careful what you're getting yorself in to
puddlebunnys (10:12:55 PM): ya true
mardox666 (10:13:21 PM): i mean your not even single yet
mardox666 (10:13:28 PM): or last i checked
puddlebunnys (10:14:02 PM): the only thing that proves that is the facebook and myspace, me and josh have not said a word since last night
mardox666 (10:14:06 PM): not to be mean or anything
puddlebunnys (10:14:15 PM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (10:14:35 PM): and besides im sure you could could a much better person then me :P
mardox666 (10:15:18 PM): ??
puddlebunnys (10:15:27 PM): could find*
puddlebunnys (10:15:28 PM): sorrys
mardox666 (10:15:35 PM): haven't yet have i
puddlebunnys (10:15:45 PM): i cant type with this keyboard
mardox666 (10:15:46 PM): and at the moment i don't want to look
puddlebunnys (10:15:51 PM): well there is xanx
puddlebunnys (10:15:54 PM): ah
mardox666 (10:15:58 PM): in cali
mardox666 (10:16:05 PM): and he told me to go after you
puddlebunnys (10:16:16 PM): are you kidding?
puddlebunnys (10:16:28 PM): but i thought you liked him?
mardox666 (10:16:51 PM): i do like
mardox666 (10:16:53 PM): him
mardox666 (10:16:57 PM): and he likes me
mardox666 (10:17:08 PM): but it wouldn't work out because of the distance
puddlebunnys (10:17:20 PM): yea
puddlebunnys (10:17:23 PM): true there
puddlebunnys (10:17:59 PM): im sorry, im singing to myself
puddlebunnys (10:18:00 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:18:09 PM): so am i
mardox666 (10:18:48 PM): i have a poem comming in
puddlebunnys (10:18:58 PM): you just thought of it?
puddlebunnys (10:19:45 PM): have you heard the song called Passion by Utada Hikaru
mardox666 (10:20:01 PM): no i haven't
puddlebunnys (10:20:17 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:20:21 PM): more drink
mardox666 (10:20:28 PM): i have random poetry come to me
puddlebunnys (10:20:36 PM): well type it out
mardox666 (10:20:38 PM): mostly when i'm depressed
puddlebunnys (10:20:44 PM): awww
mardox666 (10:20:47 PM): but lately they've been all over the place
puddlebunnys (10:21:08 PM): and why would you be depressed, im here.... kinda :P
puddlebunnys (10:21:13 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:22:01 PM): LOL
puddlebunnys (10:22:13 PM): my computer just asked me if i wanted to mount the dvd drive
puddlebunnys (10:22:14 PM): :P
puddlebunnys (10:22:58 PM): let me slip on a condom first :P
puddlebunnys (10:23:33 PM): hahaha
puddlebunnys (10:23:35 PM): nice
puddlebunnys (10:23:52 PM): use em much ?
puddlebunnys (10:23:53 PM): jk
mardox666 (10:23:54 PM): like i said better to be safe then sorry
mardox666 (10:23:56 PM): nope
puddlebunnys (10:24:12 PM): yea mine have collected dust
mardox666 (10:24:48 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (10:24:48 PM): but i guess the computer and me are doing tonight so Woot!
puddlebunnys (10:24:50 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:24:52 PM): is ok
puddlebunnys (10:25:13 PM): sex is fun but i dont need it to function
puddlebunnys (10:25:16 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:25:21 PM): niether do i
mardox666 (10:25:30 PM): ive gone what over a year
puddlebunnys (10:25:47 PM): ya so have i
puddlebunnys (10:25:55 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:26:55 PM): pokes your ass with the remote*
puddlebunnys (10:26:57 PM): ;p;
puddlebunnys (10:26:59 PM): lol*
mardox666 (10:27:52 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:28:02 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:28:19 PM): xanx
puddlebunnys (10:28:24 PM): ah
puddlebunnys (10:28:29 PM): i kinda thought so
mardox666 wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\jason\My Documents\Memories shadow around my vision.doc (10:29:24 PM).
puddlebunnys received C:\Documents and Settings\jason\My Documents\Memories shadow around my vision.doc (10:29:37 PM).
puddlebunnys (10:29:43 PM): reads it*
puddlebunnys (10:30:17 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:30:26 PM): you about got me tearing up here
mardox666 (10:30:46 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (10:30:54 PM): no its a good thing
mardox666 (10:31:27 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:32:14 PM): im going to send you a song link
puddlebunnys (10:32:17 PM): its a good song
mardox666 (10:32:35 PM): ok
puddlebunnys (10:33:57 PM): but the pome was very sweet
mardox666 (10:34:07 PM): thanks
mardox666 (10:34:17 PM): i like never write happy poetry
puddlebunnys (10:34:27 PM): oh but it is to me
puddlebunnys (10:35:35 PM): http://www.radioblogclub.com/open/130204/sanctuary/Utada%20Hikaru%20-%20Sanctuary
puddlebunnys (10:35:44 PM): there is the song btw for when you get back
puddlebunnys (10:36:17 PM): its in english to
puddlebunnys (10:36:18 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:37:35 PM): i wanted to post a note last night but knew i would get bitched at by josh and he would have turned everything around to make it my fault
mardox666 (10:37:45 PM): dammit i hate when my chest hurts
mardox666 (10:37:51 PM): what do you mean
puddlebunnys (10:37:54 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:37:57 PM): rubs it*
puddlebunnys (10:38:08 PM): i had something i thought of on the way home
mardox666 (10:38:13 PM): careful what you do ;-)
puddlebunnys (10:38:21 PM): kinda like a pome but i didn't post it
puddlebunnys (10:38:29 PM): hahaha
mardox666 (10:38:31 PM): did you at least type it up
mardox666 (10:38:45 PM): or write it down
puddlebunnys (10:38:47 PM): nope but im sure it will hit me tonight
puddlebunnys (10:38:59 PM): it always comes back
mardox666 (10:39:08 PM): i want you to come back
mardox666 (10:39:10 PM): and not leave
puddlebunnys (10:39:20 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:39:25 PM): i wish i could
puddlebunnys (10:39:37 PM): well i do need a roomie in a month or so :P
puddlebunnys (10:39:45 PM): a kid can wish right ?
puddlebunnys (10:39:49 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:40:12 PM): i might be able to visit a lot depending on where you move to
puddlebunnys (10:40:37 PM): well it was going to be somewhere in lansing
puddlebunnys (10:40:52 PM): if i can find a cheap place
mardox666 (10:41:21 PM): i think i hurt the other guy i was talking too
puddlebunnys (10:41:33 PM): how so?
mardox666 (10:42:21 PM): he i guess wants to get with me but i told him that i met someone last night that could be the one i'm looking for
puddlebunnys (10:42:45 PM): aw
puddlebunnys (10:42:56 PM): the guy from QAF?
puddlebunnys (10:42:58 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:43:18 PM): no actually the creepy guy i was avoiding
mardox666 (10:43:23 PM): i so wanted in his pants
puddlebunnys (10:43:36 PM): ew
puddlebunnys (10:43:36 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:43:45 PM): so sick
puddlebunnys (10:43:49 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:44:23 PM): oh wow
puddlebunnys (10:44:39 PM): for you its this
puddlebunnys (10:44:50 PM): :P
mardox666 (10:45:14 PM): ???
puddlebunnys (10:45:44 PM): crazy lol
puddlebunnys (10:45:52 PM): ugs
puddlebunnys (10:46:00 PM): i have to go in a few min
puddlebunnys (10:46:09 PM): i have to eat something :P
puddlebunnys (10:46:11 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:46:16 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:46:17 PM): no sad face
puddlebunnys (10:46:24 PM): oks fine
puddlebunnys (10:46:28 PM): i will stay
puddlebunnys (10:46:29 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:46:30 PM): no you have to eat
puddlebunnys (10:46:40 PM): naw its ok
puddlebunnys (10:46:42 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:46:45 PM): no you eat
puddlebunnys (10:47:21 PM): well your not here to eat so i cant eat anything :P
puddlebunnys (10:47:49 PM): mmm tasty
mardox666 (10:47:49 PM): your daily dose of protien will have to wait
puddlebunnys (10:47:51 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:48:02 PM): haha
puddlebunnys (10:48:05 PM): sure sure
puddlebunnys (10:48:21 PM): your so cute
puddlebunnys (10:48:23 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:48:23 PM): ugs
mardox666 (10:48:28 PM): do you have anything planned saturday?
puddlebunnys (10:48:31 PM): me wished i was cute like you
puddlebunnys (10:48:42 PM): nope
mardox666 (10:48:42 PM): you're cuter then i am
puddlebunnys (10:48:50 PM): lies!!
puddlebunnys (10:48:54 PM): its all lies!!!
puddlebunnys (10:49:13 PM): i wanna be a mongoose!!!
mardox666 (10:49:15 PM): i don't lie
puddlebunnys (10:49:16 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:49:17 PM): random
puddlebunnys (10:49:40 PM): doom doom.. doom doom doom
puddlebunnys (10:49:42 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:50:04 PM): so why did you ask about saturday?
puddlebunnys (10:50:25 PM): you have idea captain hotness
mardox666 (10:50:26 PM): i have some preliminary ideas floatinng around
puddlebunnys (10:50:42 PM): oks
puddlebunnys (10:50:47 PM): we talk about it in a few
mardox666 (10:50:51 PM): ok go eat
puddlebunnys (10:50:51 PM): after i eat :P
puddlebunnys (10:50:54 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:50:54 PM): eat lots
mardox666 (10:50:58 PM): eat some for me
puddlebunnys (10:51:09 PM): ok, but i will save room for you :P
puddlebunnys (10:51:46 PM): talk to you in a few
mardox666 (10:51:49 PM): k
puddlebunnys (10:51:51 PM): HUGS TIGHT*
mardox666 (10:51:56 PM): hugs tightly back
puddlebunnys (10:52:02 PM): laters :3
mardox666 (10:52:11 PM): laters
puddlebunnys is away at 10:52:27 PM.
puddlebunnys signed off at 11:04:09 PM.
puddlebunnys signed on at 11:51:55 PM.
puddlebunnys (11:52:04 PM): ok im back
mardox666 (11:52:08 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (11:52:13 PM): :D
puddlebunnys (11:52:19 PM): Snuggles up*
puddlebunnys (11:52:21 PM): hehe
mardox666 (11:52:44 PM): i'm been typing in all the poetry i've written down lately and making more
mardox666 (11:52:49 PM): i'm working on another one
puddlebunnys (11:52:59 PM): oh wow
puddlebunnys (11:53:02 PM): cool
puddlebunnys (11:53:13 PM): i should try to think of the one i had last night again
puddlebunnys (11:54:40 PM): im lonely tonight
puddlebunnys (11:54:41 PM): :-(
mardox666 (11:54:46 PM): me too
puddlebunnys (11:54:52 PM): trys to poof you here*
puddlebunnys (11:54:55 PM): ugs
puddlebunnys (11:54:58 PM): didn't work
mardox666 (11:55:25 PM): and it's so cold over here i've got like all the blankets on me
mardox666 (11:55:28 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (11:55:33 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (11:55:42 PM): holds you to keep you warm*
mardox666 (11:56:10 PM): "smile brightly
puddlebunnys (11:56:27 PM): hehe
puddlebunnys (11:56:28 PM): :D
mardox666 (11:56:34 PM): i've created a livejournal just for my poetry
puddlebunnys (11:56:51 PM): thats a good idea
puddlebunnys (11:57:09 PM): i have a blog but i have not updated it in forever
mardox666 (11:58:02 PM): i don't usually update much
mardox666 (11:58:14 PM): but i didn't want to flood people with all the poetry
puddlebunnys (11:58:40 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (11:58:42 PM): yea
mardox666 (12:00:13 AM): "lost in the arms of love
taking in the feelings
of your comfort and caring
wish that time would slow
and you could stay longer
waiting patiently for furture encouters
from your departure early this morning
i stared out the window
wishing you'd turn
and quickly
return to me and hold me tight
wishing you were closer
where a distance's problem
would rarely exist"
puddlebunnys (12:00:44 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:01:04 AM): i should have hidden under your bed :P
mardox666 (12:01:09 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:01:36 AM): i so would have
puddlebunnys (12:01:43 AM): just to be there with you
mardox666 (12:02:07 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:03:18 AM): so what did you think of that song link i sent you earlier
mardox666 (12:03:40 AM): i liked it
puddlebunnys (12:03:57 AM): cool
puddlebunnys (12:04:02 AM): thats good
mardox666 (12:04:59 AM): i wanna see you now
puddlebunnys signed off at 12:06:00 AM.
puddlebunnys signed on at 12:06:07 AM.
puddlebunnys (12:06:22 AM): damn AIM
puddlebunnys (12:06:24 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:06:35 AM): well if you want we can still hang out tomorrow
mardox666 (12:06:57 AM): yeah but i wanted to see your face again before i went to sleep tonight
puddlebunnys (12:07:16 AM): want me to get on yahoo?
mardox666 (12:07:28 AM): *ponders momentarily
puddlebunnys (12:07:39 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:07:41 AM): let me get on
mardox666 (12:07:44 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:08:03 AM): but i warm you, im shirtless
puddlebunnys (12:08:04 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:08:19 AM): =-O
puddlebunnys (12:08:22 AM): warn*
puddlebunnys (12:08:23 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:09:30 AM): see me
puddlebunnys (12:09:35 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:09:39 AM): yeah
mardox666 (12:09:41 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:09:45 AM): hehe
mardox666 (12:10:00 AM): :'(
mardox666 (12:10:03 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:10:11 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:10:14 AM): why tears
mardox666 (12:10:21 AM): playing
puddlebunnys (12:10:24 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:10:53 AM): so josh just signed on and bitched me out for now having my phone on me
puddlebunnys (12:10:57 AM): not*
mardox666 (12:11:29 AM): i'm srry
mardox666 (12:11:33 AM): and your reply
puddlebunnys (12:11:49 AM): its was a bit harsh
puddlebunnys (12:11:57 AM): but truthful i guess
puddlebunnys (12:12:05 AM): because he even asked about you
mardox666 (12:12:18 AM): what did you say
puddlebunnys (12:13:07 AM): i said you were a close friend of mine and that anything other then that was none of his business
puddlebunnys (12:13:52 AM): he never told me about that dude he was with so i dont have to tell him sqad
puddlebunnys (12:13:53 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:14:05 AM): right
puddlebunnys (12:14:38 AM): oh well, i have a funny feeling the future is going to be bright regardless
mardox666 (12:15:07 AM): do i need to back off as not to complicate things futher between you two
puddlebunnys (12:15:14 AM): nope
puddlebunnys (12:15:17 AM): you dont need to
puddlebunnys (12:15:32 AM): do you think i should?
mardox666 (12:15:45 AM): i don't want things between you two to become more strained
mardox666 (12:16:01 AM): idk
puddlebunnys (12:16:05 AM): dont worry, we already talked about breaking it off
mardox666 (12:16:19 AM): the one question i ask of you is "what do you want"
puddlebunnys (12:16:34 AM): what do you mean?
mardox666 (12:16:44 AM): your respose i guess determines my next moves
puddlebunnys (12:17:25 AM): well i like you, and i have for a wile now, if anything i would hope for a relationship with you
mardox666 (12:17:58 AM): i don't know if i'd be able to let anything move any further with the current situation
puddlebunnys (12:18:29 AM): yea i understand
mardox666 (12:18:47 AM): i'm not one to break up a relationship
puddlebunnys (12:19:00 AM): but thats the thing
puddlebunnys (12:19:03 AM): your not
mardox666 (12:19:54 AM): lord knows i already have enough enemies
mardox666 (12:20:04 AM): but i feel like it
puddlebunnys (12:20:15 AM): :-(
puddlebunnys (12:20:26 AM): well sorry then
puddlebunnys (12:21:05 AM): ugs
mardox666 (12:21:14 AM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (12:21:28 AM): you did nothing, its ok
mardox666 (12:22:21 AM): i don't want the reason for anything between you to go to shit to be because me
puddlebunnys (12:22:58 AM): well dont worry i guess
puddlebunnys (12:23:36 AM): i closed the video chat
mardox666 (12:24:06 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:24:17 AM): "running threw my head"
puddlebunnys (12:24:27 AM): i feel like thats what im doing
puddlebunnys (12:25:37 AM): im going to type something out and send it to you
puddlebunnys (12:25:52 AM): its kinda how i feel in lyric form
mardox666 (12:25:53 AM): my brain's on overdrive right now
puddlebunnys (12:28:14 AM): I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want it so much
Wanna fly away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
mardox666 (12:28:56 AM): wow
puddlebunnys (12:29:07 AM): i didn't right that btw
puddlebunnys (12:29:11 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:29:11 AM): write*
mardox666 (12:29:14 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:29:20 AM): its just all put together
puddlebunnys (12:29:30 AM): but its perfect for how i feel
mardox666 (12:30:06 AM): "i have some things
mardox666 (12:30:09 AM): srry
mardox666 (12:32:41 AM): "i have some things
deep inside i wish i could say
but pain is not my game
it gives me no gain
your face i wish
to always see bright
and tainted by sarrow
and stained by tears
but i know that over the night
it will tear and claw inside
but i shall keep it
like a deadly secret
likes it's the only thing
that keeps me alive"
puddlebunnys (12:33:05 AM): :-(
mardox666 (12:33:31 AM): i'll just say this
puddlebunnys (12:33:35 AM): well i officially feel like shit
mardox666 (12:34:02 AM): i do like you alot and i'd like to pursue something but that can't happen with the surrounding circumstances
puddlebunnys (12:34:14 AM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (12:34:15 AM): im sorry
mardox666 (12:34:27 AM): but i offer no altimatum
puddlebunnys (12:34:44 AM): yea and its good you dont i guess
puddlebunnys (12:35:18 AM): yet i let my heart fall again
mardox666 (12:35:37 AM): don't harbor any sadness with me
mardox666 (12:35:47 AM): take away all happiness and no sadness
mardox666 (12:36:12 AM): place all the pain from the moments between us two on me
mardox666 (12:36:25 AM): for i'd take it all for it's my burden to carry not yours
puddlebunnys (12:36:26 AM): so more less you wish last night didn't happen?
puddlebunnys (12:36:30 AM): no
puddlebunnys (12:36:36 AM): i dont do that to people
mardox666 (12:36:48 AM): no last night was great
mardox666 (12:37:00 AM): i wish that some aspects were different
puddlebunnys (12:37:03 AM): and besides i already stated a wile ago that i knew what was going to happen
mardox666 (12:37:36 AM): can i ask what's keeping you there?
puddlebunnys (12:37:58 AM): the number one fear i have always had
puddlebunnys (12:38:13 AM): its keeps me from practically living
mardox666 (12:38:17 AM): i'm srry for the depressing topic and serious discussion but i'd like to know what i'm supposed to do
mardox666 (12:38:23 AM): being alone
puddlebunnys (12:38:37 AM): kinda
puddlebunnys (12:38:44 AM): rejection
mardox666 (12:38:52 AM): from who
puddlebunnys (12:39:05 AM): anyone
puddlebunnys (12:39:16 AM): from you mostly right now
mardox666 (12:39:43 AM): if i was going to reject you
mardox666 (12:39:56 AM): i wouldn't have invited you back tommorrow
puddlebunnys (12:40:04 AM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (12:40:11 AM): but im talking about now
mardox666 (12:40:18 AM): what do you mean
puddlebunnys (12:40:48 AM): the desiccation has changed a bit from that point we talked about coming over
puddlebunnys (12:41:02 AM): so i dont even know if you still want me to or not
mardox666 (12:41:29 AM): i do and i don't
mardox666 (12:41:51 AM): i more do then don't but i know that i know what i'd like from the situation and currently i can't have it
puddlebunnys (12:42:26 AM): and what would you like, i told you what would like
puddlebunnys (12:42:35 AM): what i*
puddlebunnys (12:42:36 AM): sorry
mardox666 (12:42:43 AM): i want you
puddlebunnys (12:42:51 AM): but like how?
mardox666 (12:42:54 AM): i have since we started talking
puddlebunnys (12:43:05 AM): for short time, for a long time, for one night :P
puddlebunnys (12:43:08 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:43:17 AM): jk on tht one
puddlebunnys (12:43:21 AM): that*
mardox666 (12:43:28 AM): i'm a man of committed relations
mardox666 (12:43:43 AM): i think not of nights or weeks but of months and years
puddlebunnys (12:43:46 AM): and thats good
puddlebunnys (12:43:57 AM): :-)
puddlebunnys (12:44:27 AM): i wish i could do that, but it always fucks up before then
puddlebunnys (12:44:32 AM): the year mark that is
mardox666 (12:44:54 AM): i'm not like typical humans running around like a chicken with it's head cut off relationship wise
mardox666 (12:44:59 AM): i don't care
mardox666 (12:45:17 AM): i've heard you sit and recount these
mardox666 (12:45:23 AM): and still i want you
mardox666 (12:45:33 AM): i want to give it a try
mardox666 (12:45:39 AM): i want it to work out
mardox666 (12:45:47 AM): but i can't when you're still with josh
puddlebunnys (12:45:54 AM): and do you know i want the same
puddlebunnys (12:45:57 AM): yes i know
puddlebunnys (12:46:20 AM): and i have already planed to take care of that with him
mardox666 (12:46:29 AM): when
puddlebunnys (12:46:36 AM): i was going to tonight
puddlebunnys (12:46:55 AM): or early tomorrow morning, when i went to town
mardox666 (12:47:36 AM): i don't want you to think that i'm making you break it off because i don't want you to if you don't want to
puddlebunnys (12:47:59 AM): well lets see, he cheated on me
mardox666 (12:48:04 AM): i don't want to force anything
puddlebunnys (12:48:04 AM): and i dont take that from people
mardox666 (12:48:05 AM): i know
mardox666 (12:48:10 AM): i know
mardox666 (12:48:12 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:48:17 AM): but i love him and still want to be a friend to him
mardox666 (12:48:20 AM): i don't know what to say now
puddlebunnys (12:48:30 AM): so im going to deal with this like a adult
puddlebunnys (12:48:34 AM): why not?
puddlebunnys (12:48:45 AM): your not forcing me to do aything
puddlebunnys (12:48:48 AM): anything*
mardox666 (12:48:59 AM): because emotions are chocking my brain and all i want to do is cry
mardox666 (12:49:10 AM): i'm so cold
puddlebunnys (12:49:19 AM): aw, please dont cry
puddlebunnys (12:49:27 AM): listen, lets meet tomorrow and hang out
puddlebunnys (12:49:41 AM): and we can sit down and talk about this in person ok
puddlebunnys (12:49:43 AM): is that ok?
mardox666 (12:49:48 AM): yes
puddlebunnys (12:49:57 AM): oks
puddlebunnys (12:50:00 AM): :-)
puddlebunnys (12:50:14 AM): and i know how to get to your house thing time :P
puddlebunnys (12:50:18 AM): this*
mardox666 (12:50:20 AM): i might have to work i'm not 100% sure yet
puddlebunnys (12:50:37 AM): ok, when would you know tomorrow?
mardox666 (12:51:03 AM): when i get home from school and call my boss
puddlebunnys (12:51:25 AM): about what time is that?
mardox666 (12:51:40 AM): about 3:00pm
puddlebunnys (12:51:45 AM): im just trying to make sure because i will be in town
puddlebunnys (12:52:02 AM): oks, well can you call me tomorrow if you want to hang out
puddlebunnys (12:52:10 AM): if you can*
puddlebunnys (12:52:10 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:52:11 AM): sorrys
puddlebunnys (12:52:20 AM): the sleeping pills are kicking in
mardox666 (12:52:41 AM): well i will be able to but it's just when i'd be avalable
puddlebunnys (12:53:06 AM): oks
mardox666 (12:53:11 AM): well i think i need to crawl into bed
puddlebunnys (12:53:17 AM): well i should be in town most all day
puddlebunnys (12:53:24 AM): so i will have my cell on me
puddlebunnys (12:53:27 AM): have the number?
puddlebunnys (12:53:29 AM): oks
puddlebunnys (12:53:41 AM): im sorry if i have stressed you out at all
mardox666 (12:53:42 AM): 2697535020
puddlebunnys (12:53:50 AM): thats it
mardox666 (12:54:05 AM): it's not just that it's i've got to be up and out the door by 6:50am
puddlebunnys (12:54:37 AM): yea true
puddlebunnys (12:54:45 AM): well i will let you sleep then
mardox666 (12:54:47 AM): that and it takes me a while to fall asleep
puddlebunnys (12:54:53 AM): i hope you have a good night
mardox666 (12:55:12 AM): last night i didn't fall asleep until an hour after you left becuase my hip and shoulder were acting up
mardox666 (12:55:15 AM): really bad
puddlebunnys (12:55:22 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:55:32 AM): Rubs them*
mardox666 (12:55:38 AM): aww
puddlebunnys (12:55:53 AM): if i as there right now i would
mardox666 (12:56:07 AM): thanks and i really need to quite my brain so feeling isn't completely lost right now
puddlebunnys (12:56:15 AM): and if you want tomorrow we can go see a movie or something, if you can hang out that is
mardox666 (12:56:18 AM): in my right arm that is
mardox666 (12:56:22 AM): ok
puddlebunnys (12:56:28 AM): oks
mardox666 (12:56:29 AM): i'll ttyl
mardox666 (12:56:31 AM): *hugs
puddlebunnys (12:56:33 AM): ttyl
puddlebunnys (12:56:49 AM): hugs back and holds you*
puddlebunnys (12:56:53 AM): night night and sweet dreams, call me when you know
mardox666 (12:56:57 AM): night
mardox666 (12:56:59 AM): ok
puddlebunnys (12:57:01 AM): :-* hehe
puddlebunnys (12:57:30 AM): if i cam was on i would blow you a kiss but this will have to do for ow
puddlebunnys (12:57:32 AM): now*
mardox666 (12:57:39 AM): ok
mardox666 (12:57:41 AM): night
puddlebunnys (12:57:43 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:57:44 AM): night
mardox666 (12:57:45 AM): ttyl
puddlebunnys (12:57:54 AM): ttut
mardox666 (10:00:04 PM): imma kill yahoo
puddlebunnys (10:00:08 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:00:08 PM): aw
mardox666 (10:00:10 PM): my yahoo froze
puddlebunnys (10:00:10 PM): its ok
puddlebunnys (10:00:18 PM): at least i got to see you today
puddlebunnys (10:00:19 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:00:26 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:00:32 PM): :D :D
puddlebunnys (10:00:37 PM): this song is great
puddlebunnys (10:00:38 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:00:46 PM): he's got more
puddlebunnys (10:01:03 PM): im going to have to download some tonight
mardox666 (10:01:12 PM): i've got a bunch
puddlebunnys (10:01:40 PM): well i could just put them on my ipod when i came over
puddlebunnys (10:01:42 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:01:46 PM): yeah
puddlebunnys (10:02:40 PM): im going to install windows vista tonight :P
mardox666 (10:03:52 PM): ok
puddlebunnys (10:04:42 PM): some one is looking sexy tonight
mardox666 (10:04:56 PM): not really
puddlebunnys (10:05:00 PM): lier
puddlebunnys (10:05:01 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:05:09 PM): i see someone in the bed
puddlebunnys (10:05:13 PM): show time?
puddlebunnys (10:05:14 PM): jk
puddlebunnys (10:05:15 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:05:18 PM): unless your're talking about yourself
puddlebunnys (10:05:24 PM): what ever
puddlebunnys (10:05:39 PM): im as ugly as shit tonight
mardox666 (10:06:06 PM): no you're not
puddlebunnys (10:06:18 PM): ok i think we need a close up
puddlebunnys (10:06:48 PM): and you lovely as ever
puddlebunnys (10:06:52 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:06:54 PM): thanks
mardox666 (10:07:12 PM): i don't want to talk to this other person
puddlebunnys (10:07:33 PM): what person????
puddlebunnys (10:07:36 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:07:38 PM): nice hate
mardox666 (10:07:40 PM): some guy named andy
puddlebunnys (10:07:48 PM): oh?
puddlebunnys (10:07:49 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:08:36 PM): you and that damn drink
puddlebunnys (10:08:37 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:08:52 PM): rotfl
mardox666 (10:08:58 PM): it's damn tasty though
puddlebunnys (10:09:05 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:09:10 PM): but i think i might know something tastier
puddlebunnys (10:09:25 PM): Oh?
puddlebunnys (10:09:28 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:09:31 PM): like :P
mardox666 (10:10:03 PM): you'll just have to wait and find out
mardox666 (10:10:12 PM): how the hell am i considered a stud
mardox666 (10:10:18 PM): i have no muscle definition
puddlebunnys (10:10:28 PM): oh shut up
puddlebunnys (10:10:30 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:11:00 PM): i'm serious studs have muscle definition
puddlebunnys (10:11:02 PM): if i had the guts to drag you ass last night just to tell you that you had one i would have
puddlebunnys (10:11:24 PM): grab*
puddlebunnys (10:11:25 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:11:37 PM): i wsa like what he saying
puddlebunnys (10:11:43 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:11:47 PM): but i did bite you
puddlebunnys (10:11:49 PM): grrrr
puddlebunnys (10:12:01 PM): i just had to do that
mardox666 (10:12:04 PM): took me by surprise you should have seen my face
puddlebunnys (10:12:09 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:12:12 PM): good or bad?
puddlebunnys (10:12:23 PM): haha
mardox666 (10:12:24 PM): good really good
puddlebunnys (10:12:34 PM): well im happy you liked it
puddlebunnys (10:12:42 PM): want me to do it again :P
puddlebunnys (10:12:45 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:12:49 PM): be careful what you're getting yorself in to
puddlebunnys (10:12:55 PM): ya true
mardox666 (10:13:21 PM): i mean your not even single yet
mardox666 (10:13:28 PM): or last i checked
puddlebunnys (10:14:02 PM): the only thing that proves that is the facebook and myspace, me and josh have not said a word since last night
mardox666 (10:14:06 PM): not to be mean or anything
puddlebunnys (10:14:15 PM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (10:14:35 PM): and besides im sure you could could a much better person then me :P
mardox666 (10:15:18 PM): ??
puddlebunnys (10:15:27 PM): could find*
puddlebunnys (10:15:28 PM): sorrys
mardox666 (10:15:35 PM): haven't yet have i
puddlebunnys (10:15:45 PM): i cant type with this keyboard
mardox666 (10:15:46 PM): and at the moment i don't want to look
puddlebunnys (10:15:51 PM): well there is xanx
puddlebunnys (10:15:54 PM): ah
mardox666 (10:15:58 PM): in cali
mardox666 (10:16:05 PM): and he told me to go after you
puddlebunnys (10:16:16 PM): are you kidding?
puddlebunnys (10:16:28 PM): but i thought you liked him?
mardox666 (10:16:51 PM): i do like
mardox666 (10:16:53 PM): him
mardox666 (10:16:57 PM): and he likes me
mardox666 (10:17:08 PM): but it wouldn't work out because of the distance
puddlebunnys (10:17:20 PM): yea
puddlebunnys (10:17:23 PM): true there
puddlebunnys (10:17:59 PM): im sorry, im singing to myself
puddlebunnys (10:18:00 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:18:09 PM): so am i
mardox666 (10:18:48 PM): i have a poem comming in
puddlebunnys (10:18:58 PM): you just thought of it?
puddlebunnys (10:19:45 PM): have you heard the song called Passion by Utada Hikaru
mardox666 (10:20:01 PM): no i haven't
puddlebunnys (10:20:17 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:20:21 PM): more drink
mardox666 (10:20:28 PM): i have random poetry come to me
puddlebunnys (10:20:36 PM): well type it out
mardox666 (10:20:38 PM): mostly when i'm depressed
puddlebunnys (10:20:44 PM): awww
mardox666 (10:20:47 PM): but lately they've been all over the place
puddlebunnys (10:21:08 PM): and why would you be depressed, im here.... kinda :P
puddlebunnys (10:21:13 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:22:01 PM): LOL
puddlebunnys (10:22:13 PM): my computer just asked me if i wanted to mount the dvd drive
puddlebunnys (10:22:14 PM): :P
puddlebunnys (10:22:58 PM): let me slip on a condom first :P
puddlebunnys (10:23:33 PM): hahaha
puddlebunnys (10:23:35 PM): nice
puddlebunnys (10:23:52 PM): use em much ?
puddlebunnys (10:23:53 PM): jk
mardox666 (10:23:54 PM): like i said better to be safe then sorry
mardox666 (10:23:56 PM): nope
puddlebunnys (10:24:12 PM): yea mine have collected dust
mardox666 (10:24:48 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (10:24:48 PM): but i guess the computer and me are doing tonight so Woot!
puddlebunnys (10:24:50 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:24:52 PM): is ok
puddlebunnys (10:25:13 PM): sex is fun but i dont need it to function
puddlebunnys (10:25:16 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:25:21 PM): niether do i
mardox666 (10:25:30 PM): ive gone what over a year
puddlebunnys (10:25:47 PM): ya so have i
puddlebunnys (10:25:55 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:26:55 PM): pokes your ass with the remote*
puddlebunnys (10:26:57 PM): ;p;
puddlebunnys (10:26:59 PM): lol*
mardox666 (10:27:52 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:28:02 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:28:19 PM): xanx
puddlebunnys (10:28:24 PM): ah
puddlebunnys (10:28:29 PM): i kinda thought so
mardox666 wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\jason\My Documents\Memories shadow around my vision.doc (10:29:24 PM).
puddlebunnys received C:\Documents and Settings\jason\My Documents\Memories shadow around my vision.doc (10:29:37 PM).
puddlebunnys (10:29:43 PM): reads it*
puddlebunnys (10:30:17 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:30:26 PM): you about got me tearing up here
mardox666 (10:30:46 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (10:30:54 PM): no its a good thing
mardox666 (10:31:27 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (10:32:14 PM): im going to send you a song link
puddlebunnys (10:32:17 PM): its a good song
mardox666 (10:32:35 PM): ok
puddlebunnys (10:33:57 PM): but the pome was very sweet
mardox666 (10:34:07 PM): thanks
mardox666 (10:34:17 PM): i like never write happy poetry
puddlebunnys (10:34:27 PM): oh but it is to me
puddlebunnys (10:35:35 PM): http://www.radioblogclub.com/open/130204/sanctuary/Utada%20Hikaru%20-%20Sanctuary
puddlebunnys (10:35:44 PM): there is the song btw for when you get back
puddlebunnys (10:36:17 PM): its in english to
puddlebunnys (10:36:18 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:37:35 PM): i wanted to post a note last night but knew i would get bitched at by josh and he would have turned everything around to make it my fault
mardox666 (10:37:45 PM): dammit i hate when my chest hurts
mardox666 (10:37:51 PM): what do you mean
puddlebunnys (10:37:54 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:37:57 PM): rubs it*
puddlebunnys (10:38:08 PM): i had something i thought of on the way home
mardox666 (10:38:13 PM): careful what you do ;-)
puddlebunnys (10:38:21 PM): kinda like a pome but i didn't post it
puddlebunnys (10:38:29 PM): hahaha
mardox666 (10:38:31 PM): did you at least type it up
mardox666 (10:38:45 PM): or write it down
puddlebunnys (10:38:47 PM): nope but im sure it will hit me tonight
puddlebunnys (10:38:59 PM): it always comes back
mardox666 (10:39:08 PM): i want you to come back
mardox666 (10:39:10 PM): and not leave
puddlebunnys (10:39:20 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:39:25 PM): i wish i could
puddlebunnys (10:39:37 PM): well i do need a roomie in a month or so :P
puddlebunnys (10:39:45 PM): a kid can wish right ?
puddlebunnys (10:39:49 PM): hehe
mardox666 (10:40:12 PM): i might be able to visit a lot depending on where you move to
puddlebunnys (10:40:37 PM): well it was going to be somewhere in lansing
puddlebunnys (10:40:52 PM): if i can find a cheap place
mardox666 (10:41:21 PM): i think i hurt the other guy i was talking too
puddlebunnys (10:41:33 PM): how so?
mardox666 (10:42:21 PM): he i guess wants to get with me but i told him that i met someone last night that could be the one i'm looking for
puddlebunnys (10:42:45 PM): aw
puddlebunnys (10:42:56 PM): the guy from QAF?
puddlebunnys (10:42:58 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:43:18 PM): no actually the creepy guy i was avoiding
mardox666 (10:43:23 PM): i so wanted in his pants
puddlebunnys (10:43:36 PM): ew
puddlebunnys (10:43:36 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:43:45 PM): so sick
puddlebunnys (10:43:49 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:44:23 PM): oh wow
puddlebunnys (10:44:39 PM): for you its this
puddlebunnys (10:44:50 PM): :P
mardox666 (10:45:14 PM): ???
puddlebunnys (10:45:44 PM): crazy lol
puddlebunnys (10:45:52 PM): ugs
puddlebunnys (10:46:00 PM): i have to go in a few min
puddlebunnys (10:46:09 PM): i have to eat something :P
puddlebunnys (10:46:11 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:46:16 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (10:46:17 PM): no sad face
puddlebunnys (10:46:24 PM): oks fine
puddlebunnys (10:46:28 PM): i will stay
puddlebunnys (10:46:29 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:46:30 PM): no you have to eat
puddlebunnys (10:46:40 PM): naw its ok
puddlebunnys (10:46:42 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:46:45 PM): no you eat
puddlebunnys (10:47:21 PM): well your not here to eat so i cant eat anything :P
puddlebunnys (10:47:49 PM): mmm tasty
mardox666 (10:47:49 PM): your daily dose of protien will have to wait
puddlebunnys (10:47:51 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:48:02 PM): haha
puddlebunnys (10:48:05 PM): sure sure
puddlebunnys (10:48:21 PM): your so cute
puddlebunnys (10:48:23 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:48:23 PM): ugs
mardox666 (10:48:28 PM): do you have anything planned saturday?
puddlebunnys (10:48:31 PM): me wished i was cute like you
puddlebunnys (10:48:42 PM): nope
mardox666 (10:48:42 PM): you're cuter then i am
puddlebunnys (10:48:50 PM): lies!!
puddlebunnys (10:48:54 PM): its all lies!!!
puddlebunnys (10:49:13 PM): i wanna be a mongoose!!!
mardox666 (10:49:15 PM): i don't lie
puddlebunnys (10:49:16 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:49:17 PM): random
puddlebunnys (10:49:40 PM): doom doom.. doom doom doom
puddlebunnys (10:49:42 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (10:50:04 PM): so why did you ask about saturday?
puddlebunnys (10:50:25 PM): you have idea captain hotness
mardox666 (10:50:26 PM): i have some preliminary ideas floatinng around
puddlebunnys (10:50:42 PM): oks
puddlebunnys (10:50:47 PM): we talk about it in a few
mardox666 (10:50:51 PM): ok go eat
puddlebunnys (10:50:51 PM): after i eat :P
puddlebunnys (10:50:54 PM): lol
mardox666 (10:50:54 PM): eat lots
mardox666 (10:50:58 PM): eat some for me
puddlebunnys (10:51:09 PM): ok, but i will save room for you :P
puddlebunnys (10:51:46 PM): talk to you in a few
mardox666 (10:51:49 PM): k
puddlebunnys (10:51:51 PM): HUGS TIGHT*
mardox666 (10:51:56 PM): hugs tightly back
puddlebunnys (10:52:02 PM): laters :3
mardox666 (10:52:11 PM): laters
puddlebunnys is away at 10:52:27 PM.
puddlebunnys signed off at 11:04:09 PM.
puddlebunnys signed on at 11:51:55 PM.
puddlebunnys (11:52:04 PM): ok im back
mardox666 (11:52:08 PM): yay
puddlebunnys (11:52:13 PM): :D
puddlebunnys (11:52:19 PM): Snuggles up*
puddlebunnys (11:52:21 PM): hehe
mardox666 (11:52:44 PM): i'm been typing in all the poetry i've written down lately and making more
mardox666 (11:52:49 PM): i'm working on another one
puddlebunnys (11:52:59 PM): oh wow
puddlebunnys (11:53:02 PM): cool
puddlebunnys (11:53:13 PM): i should try to think of the one i had last night again
puddlebunnys (11:54:40 PM): im lonely tonight
puddlebunnys (11:54:41 PM): :-(
mardox666 (11:54:46 PM): me too
puddlebunnys (11:54:52 PM): trys to poof you here*
puddlebunnys (11:54:55 PM): ugs
puddlebunnys (11:54:58 PM): didn't work
mardox666 (11:55:25 PM): and it's so cold over here i've got like all the blankets on me
mardox666 (11:55:28 PM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (11:55:33 PM): awww
puddlebunnys (11:55:42 PM): holds you to keep you warm*
mardox666 (11:56:10 PM): "smile brightly
puddlebunnys (11:56:27 PM): hehe
puddlebunnys (11:56:28 PM): :D
mardox666 (11:56:34 PM): i've created a livejournal just for my poetry
puddlebunnys (11:56:51 PM): thats a good idea
puddlebunnys (11:57:09 PM): i have a blog but i have not updated it in forever
mardox666 (11:58:02 PM): i don't usually update much
mardox666 (11:58:14 PM): but i didn't want to flood people with all the poetry
puddlebunnys (11:58:40 PM): lol
puddlebunnys (11:58:42 PM): yea
mardox666 (12:00:13 AM): "lost in the arms of love
taking in the feelings
of your comfort and caring
wish that time would slow
and you could stay longer
waiting patiently for furture encouters
from your departure early this morning
i stared out the window
wishing you'd turn
and quickly
return to me and hold me tight
wishing you were closer
where a distance's problem
would rarely exist"
puddlebunnys (12:00:44 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:01:04 AM): i should have hidden under your bed :P
mardox666 (12:01:09 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:01:36 AM): i so would have
puddlebunnys (12:01:43 AM): just to be there with you
mardox666 (12:02:07 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:03:18 AM): so what did you think of that song link i sent you earlier
mardox666 (12:03:40 AM): i liked it
puddlebunnys (12:03:57 AM): cool
puddlebunnys (12:04:02 AM): thats good
mardox666 (12:04:59 AM): i wanna see you now
puddlebunnys signed off at 12:06:00 AM.
puddlebunnys signed on at 12:06:07 AM.
puddlebunnys (12:06:22 AM): damn AIM
puddlebunnys (12:06:24 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:06:35 AM): well if you want we can still hang out tomorrow
mardox666 (12:06:57 AM): yeah but i wanted to see your face again before i went to sleep tonight
puddlebunnys (12:07:16 AM): want me to get on yahoo?
mardox666 (12:07:28 AM): *ponders momentarily
puddlebunnys (12:07:39 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:07:41 AM): let me get on
mardox666 (12:07:44 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:08:03 AM): but i warm you, im shirtless
puddlebunnys (12:08:04 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:08:19 AM): =-O
puddlebunnys (12:08:22 AM): warn*
puddlebunnys (12:08:23 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:09:30 AM): see me
puddlebunnys (12:09:35 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:09:39 AM): yeah
mardox666 (12:09:41 AM): yay
puddlebunnys (12:09:45 AM): hehe
mardox666 (12:10:00 AM): :'(
mardox666 (12:10:03 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:10:11 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:10:14 AM): why tears
mardox666 (12:10:21 AM): playing
puddlebunnys (12:10:24 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:10:53 AM): so josh just signed on and bitched me out for now having my phone on me
puddlebunnys (12:10:57 AM): not*
mardox666 (12:11:29 AM): i'm srry
mardox666 (12:11:33 AM): and your reply
puddlebunnys (12:11:49 AM): its was a bit harsh
puddlebunnys (12:11:57 AM): but truthful i guess
puddlebunnys (12:12:05 AM): because he even asked about you
mardox666 (12:12:18 AM): what did you say
puddlebunnys (12:13:07 AM): i said you were a close friend of mine and that anything other then that was none of his business
puddlebunnys (12:13:52 AM): he never told me about that dude he was with so i dont have to tell him sqad
puddlebunnys (12:13:53 AM): lol
mardox666 (12:14:05 AM): right
puddlebunnys (12:14:38 AM): oh well, i have a funny feeling the future is going to be bright regardless
mardox666 (12:15:07 AM): do i need to back off as not to complicate things futher between you two
puddlebunnys (12:15:14 AM): nope
puddlebunnys (12:15:17 AM): you dont need to
puddlebunnys (12:15:32 AM): do you think i should?
mardox666 (12:15:45 AM): i don't want things between you two to become more strained
mardox666 (12:16:01 AM): idk
puddlebunnys (12:16:05 AM): dont worry, we already talked about breaking it off
mardox666 (12:16:19 AM): the one question i ask of you is "what do you want"
puddlebunnys (12:16:34 AM): what do you mean?
mardox666 (12:16:44 AM): your respose i guess determines my next moves
puddlebunnys (12:17:25 AM): well i like you, and i have for a wile now, if anything i would hope for a relationship with you
mardox666 (12:17:58 AM): i don't know if i'd be able to let anything move any further with the current situation
puddlebunnys (12:18:29 AM): yea i understand
mardox666 (12:18:47 AM): i'm not one to break up a relationship
puddlebunnys (12:19:00 AM): but thats the thing
puddlebunnys (12:19:03 AM): your not
mardox666 (12:19:54 AM): lord knows i already have enough enemies
mardox666 (12:20:04 AM): but i feel like it
puddlebunnys (12:20:15 AM): :-(
puddlebunnys (12:20:26 AM): well sorry then
puddlebunnys (12:21:05 AM): ugs
mardox666 (12:21:14 AM): i'm srry
puddlebunnys (12:21:28 AM): you did nothing, its ok
mardox666 (12:22:21 AM): i don't want the reason for anything between you to go to shit to be because me
puddlebunnys (12:22:58 AM): well dont worry i guess
puddlebunnys (12:23:36 AM): i closed the video chat
mardox666 (12:24:06 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:24:17 AM): "running threw my head"
puddlebunnys (12:24:27 AM): i feel like thats what im doing
puddlebunnys (12:25:37 AM): im going to type something out and send it to you
puddlebunnys (12:25:52 AM): its kinda how i feel in lyric form
mardox666 (12:25:53 AM): my brain's on overdrive right now
puddlebunnys (12:28:14 AM): I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want it so much
Wanna fly away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
mardox666 (12:28:56 AM): wow
puddlebunnys (12:29:07 AM): i didn't right that btw
puddlebunnys (12:29:11 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:29:11 AM): write*
mardox666 (12:29:14 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:29:20 AM): its just all put together
puddlebunnys (12:29:30 AM): but its perfect for how i feel
mardox666 (12:30:06 AM): "i have some things
mardox666 (12:30:09 AM): srry
mardox666 (12:32:41 AM): "i have some things
deep inside i wish i could say
but pain is not my game
it gives me no gain
your face i wish
to always see bright
and tainted by sarrow
and stained by tears
but i know that over the night
it will tear and claw inside
but i shall keep it
like a deadly secret
likes it's the only thing
that keeps me alive"
puddlebunnys (12:33:05 AM): :-(
mardox666 (12:33:31 AM): i'll just say this
puddlebunnys (12:33:35 AM): well i officially feel like shit
mardox666 (12:34:02 AM): i do like you alot and i'd like to pursue something but that can't happen with the surrounding circumstances
puddlebunnys (12:34:14 AM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (12:34:15 AM): im sorry
mardox666 (12:34:27 AM): but i offer no altimatum
puddlebunnys (12:34:44 AM): yea and its good you dont i guess
puddlebunnys (12:35:18 AM): yet i let my heart fall again
mardox666 (12:35:37 AM): don't harbor any sadness with me
mardox666 (12:35:47 AM): take away all happiness and no sadness
mardox666 (12:36:12 AM): place all the pain from the moments between us two on me
mardox666 (12:36:25 AM): for i'd take it all for it's my burden to carry not yours
puddlebunnys (12:36:26 AM): so more less you wish last night didn't happen?
puddlebunnys (12:36:30 AM): no
puddlebunnys (12:36:36 AM): i dont do that to people
mardox666 (12:36:48 AM): no last night was great
mardox666 (12:37:00 AM): i wish that some aspects were different
puddlebunnys (12:37:03 AM): and besides i already stated a wile ago that i knew what was going to happen
mardox666 (12:37:36 AM): can i ask what's keeping you there?
puddlebunnys (12:37:58 AM): the number one fear i have always had
puddlebunnys (12:38:13 AM): its keeps me from practically living
mardox666 (12:38:17 AM): i'm srry for the depressing topic and serious discussion but i'd like to know what i'm supposed to do
mardox666 (12:38:23 AM): being alone
puddlebunnys (12:38:37 AM): kinda
puddlebunnys (12:38:44 AM): rejection
mardox666 (12:38:52 AM): from who
puddlebunnys (12:39:05 AM): anyone
puddlebunnys (12:39:16 AM): from you mostly right now
mardox666 (12:39:43 AM): if i was going to reject you
mardox666 (12:39:56 AM): i wouldn't have invited you back tommorrow
puddlebunnys (12:40:04 AM): yea i know
puddlebunnys (12:40:11 AM): but im talking about now
mardox666 (12:40:18 AM): what do you mean
puddlebunnys (12:40:48 AM): the desiccation has changed a bit from that point we talked about coming over
puddlebunnys (12:41:02 AM): so i dont even know if you still want me to or not
mardox666 (12:41:29 AM): i do and i don't
mardox666 (12:41:51 AM): i more do then don't but i know that i know what i'd like from the situation and currently i can't have it
puddlebunnys (12:42:26 AM): and what would you like, i told you what would like
puddlebunnys (12:42:35 AM): what i*
puddlebunnys (12:42:36 AM): sorry
mardox666 (12:42:43 AM): i want you
puddlebunnys (12:42:51 AM): but like how?
mardox666 (12:42:54 AM): i have since we started talking
puddlebunnys (12:43:05 AM): for short time, for a long time, for one night :P
puddlebunnys (12:43:08 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:43:17 AM): jk on tht one
puddlebunnys (12:43:21 AM): that*
mardox666 (12:43:28 AM): i'm a man of committed relations
mardox666 (12:43:43 AM): i think not of nights or weeks but of months and years
puddlebunnys (12:43:46 AM): and thats good
puddlebunnys (12:43:57 AM): :-)
puddlebunnys (12:44:27 AM): i wish i could do that, but it always fucks up before then
puddlebunnys (12:44:32 AM): the year mark that is
mardox666 (12:44:54 AM): i'm not like typical humans running around like a chicken with it's head cut off relationship wise
mardox666 (12:44:59 AM): i don't care
mardox666 (12:45:17 AM): i've heard you sit and recount these
mardox666 (12:45:23 AM): and still i want you
mardox666 (12:45:33 AM): i want to give it a try
mardox666 (12:45:39 AM): i want it to work out
mardox666 (12:45:47 AM): but i can't when you're still with josh
puddlebunnys (12:45:54 AM): and do you know i want the same
puddlebunnys (12:45:57 AM): yes i know
puddlebunnys (12:46:20 AM): and i have already planed to take care of that with him
mardox666 (12:46:29 AM): when
puddlebunnys (12:46:36 AM): i was going to tonight
puddlebunnys (12:46:55 AM): or early tomorrow morning, when i went to town
mardox666 (12:47:36 AM): i don't want you to think that i'm making you break it off because i don't want you to if you don't want to
puddlebunnys (12:47:59 AM): well lets see, he cheated on me
mardox666 (12:48:04 AM): i don't want to force anything
puddlebunnys (12:48:04 AM): and i dont take that from people
mardox666 (12:48:05 AM): i know
mardox666 (12:48:10 AM): i know
mardox666 (12:48:12 AM): i know
puddlebunnys (12:48:17 AM): but i love him and still want to be a friend to him
mardox666 (12:48:20 AM): i don't know what to say now
puddlebunnys (12:48:30 AM): so im going to deal with this like a adult
puddlebunnys (12:48:34 AM): why not?
puddlebunnys (12:48:45 AM): your not forcing me to do aything
puddlebunnys (12:48:48 AM): anything*
mardox666 (12:48:59 AM): because emotions are chocking my brain and all i want to do is cry
mardox666 (12:49:10 AM): i'm so cold
puddlebunnys (12:49:19 AM): aw, please dont cry
puddlebunnys (12:49:27 AM): listen, lets meet tomorrow and hang out
puddlebunnys (12:49:41 AM): and we can sit down and talk about this in person ok
puddlebunnys (12:49:43 AM): is that ok?
mardox666 (12:49:48 AM): yes
puddlebunnys (12:49:57 AM): oks
puddlebunnys (12:50:00 AM): :-)
puddlebunnys (12:50:14 AM): and i know how to get to your house thing time :P
puddlebunnys (12:50:18 AM): this*
mardox666 (12:50:20 AM): i might have to work i'm not 100% sure yet
puddlebunnys (12:50:37 AM): ok, when would you know tomorrow?
mardox666 (12:51:03 AM): when i get home from school and call my boss
puddlebunnys (12:51:25 AM): about what time is that?
mardox666 (12:51:40 AM): about 3:00pm
puddlebunnys (12:51:45 AM): im just trying to make sure because i will be in town
puddlebunnys (12:52:02 AM): oks, well can you call me tomorrow if you want to hang out
puddlebunnys (12:52:10 AM): if you can*
puddlebunnys (12:52:10 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:52:11 AM): sorrys
puddlebunnys (12:52:20 AM): the sleeping pills are kicking in
mardox666 (12:52:41 AM): well i will be able to but it's just when i'd be avalable
puddlebunnys (12:53:06 AM): oks
mardox666 (12:53:11 AM): well i think i need to crawl into bed
puddlebunnys (12:53:17 AM): well i should be in town most all day
puddlebunnys (12:53:24 AM): so i will have my cell on me
puddlebunnys (12:53:27 AM): have the number?
puddlebunnys (12:53:29 AM): oks
puddlebunnys (12:53:41 AM): im sorry if i have stressed you out at all
mardox666 (12:53:42 AM): 2697535020
puddlebunnys (12:53:50 AM): thats it
mardox666 (12:54:05 AM): it's not just that it's i've got to be up and out the door by 6:50am
puddlebunnys (12:54:37 AM): yea true
puddlebunnys (12:54:45 AM): well i will let you sleep then
mardox666 (12:54:47 AM): that and it takes me a while to fall asleep
puddlebunnys (12:54:53 AM): i hope you have a good night
mardox666 (12:55:12 AM): last night i didn't fall asleep until an hour after you left becuase my hip and shoulder were acting up
mardox666 (12:55:15 AM): really bad
puddlebunnys (12:55:22 AM): awww
puddlebunnys (12:55:32 AM): Rubs them*
mardox666 (12:55:38 AM): aww
puddlebunnys (12:55:53 AM): if i as there right now i would
mardox666 (12:56:07 AM): thanks and i really need to quite my brain so feeling isn't completely lost right now
puddlebunnys (12:56:15 AM): and if you want tomorrow we can go see a movie or something, if you can hang out that is
mardox666 (12:56:18 AM): in my right arm that is
mardox666 (12:56:22 AM): ok
puddlebunnys (12:56:28 AM): oks
mardox666 (12:56:29 AM): i'll ttyl
mardox666 (12:56:31 AM): *hugs
puddlebunnys (12:56:33 AM): ttyl
puddlebunnys (12:56:49 AM): hugs back and holds you*
puddlebunnys (12:56:53 AM): night night and sweet dreams, call me when you know
mardox666 (12:56:57 AM): night
mardox666 (12:56:59 AM): ok
puddlebunnys (12:57:01 AM): :-* hehe
puddlebunnys (12:57:30 AM): if i cam was on i would blow you a kiss but this will have to do for ow
puddlebunnys (12:57:32 AM): now*
mardox666 (12:57:39 AM): ok
mardox666 (12:57:41 AM): night
puddlebunnys (12:57:43 AM): lol
puddlebunnys (12:57:44 AM): night
mardox666 (12:57:45 AM): ttyl
puddlebunnys (12:57:54 AM): ttut