hiatus.
i'm not really sure if this is a sudden announcement or not because i've been talking about it a little for a while now, but as a formal regards: hiatus from the kpop fandom! definitely not permanent, but will probably last on for however long it'll take me to get back into fandom and fall back into regular life routine.
long story short, i'm beginning to feel (once again) very... stressed. and it's summer, aqsa, why are you stressed! well, i still haven't completed my summer homework, as i only just recently finished summer school, i just started a new job - really my old job, but just promoted - which is a huge jump in hours, i'm planning for this huge party, and senior year is about to start and im worrying over college applications and convincing my parents to let me go out of state without it being a huge financial burden on them. writing has become very difficult for me and it feels like a chore, almost, something im forced to do rather than something for my own enjoyment. same with reading fanfiction. unsurprisingly, the only fandom stuff i have (sort of) been keeping up with in this doubtful time is anything.... somewhat.... concerning sehun or jongin. because. bias. so what.
i've made so many wonderful, wonderful, wonderful friends from kpop so to drop it so suddenly would be impossible for me to do. but i do really, really need a break. once summer started, i was looking forward to being able to write as much as i wanted, but it's become a burden, really. i don't know why. i guess because i'm forcing it, which i shouldn't be doing.
also, i know i made that request post so long ago, and i have yet to fulfill even half of them, but i'm still planning on writing them, i promise. i will not leave this fandom without finishing all of those haha.
i feel really bad, especially to you #angstcircle guys who are my absolute dearest friends on the entire planet and i don't know what i would do without each and every one of you, but i just.... need.... a breather...
sighs. i feel so sad writing this. but i guess don't expect any writing from me soon. do, however, continue linking me to all your stuff, i have a notes post saved of every single thing i still have to read, whether its a story or a wip collection or even just a personal post.
hopefully i'll live on through twitter. maybe. i don't know. cries.
okay i think that's it. just fandom-hiatus. i'm pretty sure i'll be back but for now.... sorry guys
long story short, i'm beginning to feel (once again) very... stressed. and it's summer, aqsa, why are you stressed! well, i still haven't completed my summer homework, as i only just recently finished summer school, i just started a new job - really my old job, but just promoted - which is a huge jump in hours, i'm planning for this huge party, and senior year is about to start and im worrying over college applications and convincing my parents to let me go out of state without it being a huge financial burden on them. writing has become very difficult for me and it feels like a chore, almost, something im forced to do rather than something for my own enjoyment. same with reading fanfiction. unsurprisingly, the only fandom stuff i have (sort of) been keeping up with in this doubtful time is anything.... somewhat.... concerning sehun or jongin. because. bias. so what.
i've made so many wonderful, wonderful, wonderful friends from kpop so to drop it so suddenly would be impossible for me to do. but i do really, really need a break. once summer started, i was looking forward to being able to write as much as i wanted, but it's become a burden, really. i don't know why. i guess because i'm forcing it, which i shouldn't be doing.
also, i know i made that request post so long ago, and i have yet to fulfill even half of them, but i'm still planning on writing them, i promise. i will not leave this fandom without finishing all of those haha.
i feel really bad, especially to you #angstcircle guys who are my absolute dearest friends on the entire planet and i don't know what i would do without each and every one of you, but i just.... need.... a breather...
sighs. i feel so sad writing this. but i guess don't expect any writing from me soon. do, however, continue linking me to all your stuff, i have a notes post saved of every single thing i still have to read, whether its a story or a wip collection or even just a personal post.
hopefully i'll live on through twitter. maybe. i don't know. cries.
okay i think that's it. just fandom-hiatus. i'm pretty sure i'll be back but for now.... sorry guys