I think its awfully funny that a friend of mine who just got back in touch with me has offered to take a day off work and come to Victoria from Vancouver to be there with me for the abortion. That's a hell of alot more than any of my other so-called friends and even my ex boyfriend (who insisted he loves me so very much) have even mentioned, let ( Read more... )

Well, I was sure I was pregnant for over a month. I have had proof for almost two weeks. Needless to say I have done alot of thinking. I have decided to abort the baby. My reasons are simple. I don't want anything more to do with Billy as I am tired of his ceaseless insults and anger. I want to do certain things in life that I probably won't ( Read more... )

Well I've so far recieved three threatening e-mails in my inbox from Billy. Funny how its all my fault that I'm pregnant. Well that's fine. I'm happy keeping the baby, and I'm going to keep the baby. I really don't care what he has to say about it because its not his choice. He says he's sick of the relationship and all this. Well so am I. I ( Read more... )

I am six weeks pregnant. I have quit smoking, I have quit drinking, and I am going to keep the baby. Its Billy's - no doubt about it. Although we are broken up, I still want to keep the baby. If he wants to be a part of the child's life, that's fine, but I won't be after him for time or money. I don't want to get back together with him as we ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm getting fucking tired of school already. What did I pay all this money for? It wasn't to sit around talking about fears and goals and stupid shit like that. This circle jerk bullshit is getting to me. My classmates are as follows: a kiss ass, a sweet but totally naieve girl, and a girl who can't keep her eyes open. So then there's me ( Read more... )

Well yesterday was a very interesting day. I decided to go over to Billy's and see if the landlady would let me pop in and grab a few things that I needed. She buzzed me in and told me to meet her up there. I heard someone inside, so I knocked. It was Melissa and her daughter. We ended up hanging out most of the day, and we are going to look ( Read more... )

Whew, what a long day yesterday! I smoked some pot before bed a couple nights ago, and yesterday I managed to sleep in until 8AM! Yay! This morning I was up at just before 6 again. *sigh* Yesterday was actually uneventful. I went to work, didn't make anything (god its been so slow and I really could use that money my friend sent me because I ( Read more... )

Holy crap, what a busy day I had yesterday. Brandy and I met up in the morning and we went around to do some running around in the morning. Then we went shopping for the day. We met up with a few others from the hostel who were also Halloween shopping, and went to Tony's Trick and Joke Shop and Value Village. I picked up a super cute little ( Read more... )

Billy said to me that he didn't think I was really happy in our relationship. I could say the same for him. For me, I find it really hard to be happy when I'm being kept in the closet, when I'm not around to go out with him like we used to, when rather than talking about things he lets them get out of hand. Its hard to be happy when you know the ( Read more... )

Well, I'm single again. Whoopty doo. It really sucks because I have so many concerns and only AFTER Billy breaks up with me does he talk to me about this stuff and tell me what I needed to hear all along. Why is that? Why do people always do the right thing too late? Oh well, there's nothing much I can do about it ( Read more... )