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i just floated back home on a cloud from the mountains. out of everything in this world i most certainly enjoy the rockies more than i can explain. i had so much time to ponder life. i had so much time to laugh at myself and the wonderful pool of silly individuals that surround me in life. i realized so many things. i soaked in such breathtaking, awe-inspiring wonderfulness.
taking people i luv to that place, on the top of my mountain, in the midst of such humbling beauty, is one of the most spiritual experiences for me. to open myself up in that way in front of luved ones is so important to me. we reached the top and i looked down and brushed the entire landscape with my fingertips, slightly humming a gutteral note that seemed to pulsate with the earth below me.
we got lost in the desert. i think we purposely did it to be quite honest. we knew none of us were paying attention to the start. none of us were leaving signs for the way back. we simply found a spot in the distance and said, let's get there. on our excursion we realized things about ourselves and about life. the world is such a silly place. sometimes the universe just points at you and throws things in your face that just seem so unreal. i always feel that finger pointing in places like new mexico. with this beauty also comes so much harsh reality. such harsh pain and sadness. but there is so much wonderfulness in pain and sadness. when the universe knocks you on your ass, after you finally stand back up, don't let it get away. you grab hold of the universe before he passes by and you shake him for all he's worth. it might burn you, it might tear you up, but you grip tighter and harder. you bitch slap that motherfucker! and you flip it on it's fucking back. you hold it and play with it and fight it and embrace it and you will be left with such amazing gifts. look at what has come my way so far! sometimes when you get knocked over, the people who lend out their hands for you are the most important. we have to remember to pass that on as much as humanly possible. i've been feeling so human lately. sometimes a person has to be lost in the desert to figure these kinds of things out. good thing i'm a bit taller than most, i think it gives me an advantage, maybe i can see farther or something. and i just got a handy dandy brand spankin' new digicam so the focus button is my new favorite toy :)
we also decided our winnie the pooh characters. i would be christopher robin. the boy who carries around an umbrella in case it rains.
but my advice would have to be to not hide from the rain all the time. something bad is coming your way?? you say bring it the fuck on! let it pour on you! let yourself choke on it and bleed with it and let it leave bruises and cuts. you can only be better and better because of it. take in the harmony of the world and also take in the raw edge of it. there's no getting around it anyway. it's always gonna be coming around.
and in that darkness sometimes you reach out and find the most warm heart standing right next to you. these people in my life are so important. all of them. every single one of them. i give my luv freely, which means i can expect nothing in return. it is my pleasure to give it. and those of you who fall in the general vacinity of my heart should know how special we are. we're all in it together.
the person inside me that has so much trouble coming out-he almost believes in himself. he almost sees how wonderful he truly is. he's shaking the universe for all it's worth right now. and when the dust settles he will look back and thank god for pointing at him. for calling on him to strengthen his soul.
i am elated it is finally october. the next four months are going to be so cozy for me. like a big cup of hot chocolate. my happy little bubble.
just for the hell of it:
Through the warmthest cord of care
your love was sent to me
I'm not sure what to do with it
or where to put it
I'm so close to tear
and so close to
simply calling you up
and simply suggesting
We go to that hidden place
Now, I have been slightly shy
but I can smell a pinch of hope
to almost have allowed once fingers
to stroke
the fingers I was given to touch with
but careful careful
There lies my passion hidden
here lies my love
I'll hide it under a blanket
lull it to sleep
I'll keep it in a hidden place
He's
the beautifullest
fragilest
still strong
dark and divine
and the littleness of his movements
hides himself
He invents a charm
that makes him invisible
hides in the hair
Can I hide there too?
hide in the hair of him
seek solace
sanctuary
In that hidden place
taking people i luv to that place, on the top of my mountain, in the midst of such humbling beauty, is one of the most spiritual experiences for me. to open myself up in that way in front of luved ones is so important to me. we reached the top and i looked down and brushed the entire landscape with my fingertips, slightly humming a gutteral note that seemed to pulsate with the earth below me.
we got lost in the desert. i think we purposely did it to be quite honest. we knew none of us were paying attention to the start. none of us were leaving signs for the way back. we simply found a spot in the distance and said, let's get there. on our excursion we realized things about ourselves and about life. the world is such a silly place. sometimes the universe just points at you and throws things in your face that just seem so unreal. i always feel that finger pointing in places like new mexico. with this beauty also comes so much harsh reality. such harsh pain and sadness. but there is so much wonderfulness in pain and sadness. when the universe knocks you on your ass, after you finally stand back up, don't let it get away. you grab hold of the universe before he passes by and you shake him for all he's worth. it might burn you, it might tear you up, but you grip tighter and harder. you bitch slap that motherfucker! and you flip it on it's fucking back. you hold it and play with it and fight it and embrace it and you will be left with such amazing gifts. look at what has come my way so far! sometimes when you get knocked over, the people who lend out their hands for you are the most important. we have to remember to pass that on as much as humanly possible. i've been feeling so human lately. sometimes a person has to be lost in the desert to figure these kinds of things out. good thing i'm a bit taller than most, i think it gives me an advantage, maybe i can see farther or something. and i just got a handy dandy brand spankin' new digicam so the focus button is my new favorite toy :)
we also decided our winnie the pooh characters. i would be christopher robin. the boy who carries around an umbrella in case it rains.
but my advice would have to be to not hide from the rain all the time. something bad is coming your way?? you say bring it the fuck on! let it pour on you! let yourself choke on it and bleed with it and let it leave bruises and cuts. you can only be better and better because of it. take in the harmony of the world and also take in the raw edge of it. there's no getting around it anyway. it's always gonna be coming around.
and in that darkness sometimes you reach out and find the most warm heart standing right next to you. these people in my life are so important. all of them. every single one of them. i give my luv freely, which means i can expect nothing in return. it is my pleasure to give it. and those of you who fall in the general vacinity of my heart should know how special we are. we're all in it together.
the person inside me that has so much trouble coming out-he almost believes in himself. he almost sees how wonderful he truly is. he's shaking the universe for all it's worth right now. and when the dust settles he will look back and thank god for pointing at him. for calling on him to strengthen his soul.
i am elated it is finally october. the next four months are going to be so cozy for me. like a big cup of hot chocolate. my happy little bubble.
just for the hell of it:
Through the warmthest cord of care
your love was sent to me
I'm not sure what to do with it
or where to put it
I'm so close to tear
and so close to
simply calling you up
and simply suggesting
We go to that hidden place
Now, I have been slightly shy
but I can smell a pinch of hope
to almost have allowed once fingers
to stroke
the fingers I was given to touch with
but careful careful
There lies my passion hidden
here lies my love
I'll hide it under a blanket
lull it to sleep
I'll keep it in a hidden place
He's
the beautifullest
fragilest
still strong
dark and divine
and the littleness of his movements
hides himself
He invents a charm
that makes him invisible
hides in the hair
Can I hide there too?
hide in the hair of him
seek solace
sanctuary
In that hidden place