im back ( Read more... )

mindless self indulgence is my new favourite band.

well, that was an enjoyable weekend:) friday was an adventure. just before were supposed to take off to meet justin, the brake on the car goes to shit, and we cant go anywhere. so i rounded up some money for the bus and met him in toronto. then we went to union station and had the most delicious cinnamon bun ive ever experienced. holy cow. anyway ( Read more... )

so, florida eh? hm. i must look up some wicked amusement parks. this is gonna be weird. i hate family vacations.

fuck...i cant handle this anymore. i just want it all back, i just want things to be like they were. will they ever? is this just a stepping stone? will he ever talk to me again? WHAT THE FUCK. what id give...just to grasp a few moments, go a half an hour without tears, to rip this spear out of my heart. just let me die.

"have heart, my dear ( Read more... )

all the fucking pretty people...

"you look like what you look like, beauty is only skin deep, its whats on the inside that counts..."

yes

but fuck

for once, id just like to be beautiful

somebody hug me:(

my heart just wants to love...

fuck

ive lost it.

im sick of living in a loveless house

im sick of feeling alone, and not close to anyone. does anyone even want to be close to me?

clutching so hard to the 2 things i love so much...

is he the only one?

maybe the bastards right. maybe i do need help.

fuck it. i should just leave.

maybe a breakup is exactly what i need...