when it rains it pours..

[bones_of_chaos]

 well nothings really new. same old shit different day. i dont know if ive just been purging to much or what but it feels different now. i mean my boyfriend thinks i have an ulcer cuz of the black stuff in my puke but i ignored that and the blood i sometimes see. but it feels so different when im purging it doesnt just hurt from like the stomach

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If I could fucking make myself vomit I would

[volvo240]

I know how you feel. I do all that I can and I still look in the mirror and see all this fat. People tell me I am skinny and I think that they must be blind.Maybe I am blind. I hate my body. I just want to be smaller. skinnier. bones. no fat. Just a pretty little frame with clothes hanging off of me. Why can't I choose what I look like? Why do I look at myself everyday in disgust.

fuck this

(P.s. sorry im drunk)

Re: If I could fucking make myself vomit I would

[bones_of_chaos]

its okay that your drunk. :)
but i feel the same way, bones with clothes HANGING off them is what i want. and i think everyone who tells me im skinny just means COMPARED TO THEM because yeah compared to my mom im skinny but not like compared to nicole richie or mary kate olsen and thats what i want so everyone needs to just shut the fuck up and take the food away!
XOXO <33.

Re: If I could fucking make myself vomit I would

[volvo240]

EXACTLY i am skinny compared to them. People give me that shit all the time. I may be skinnier then my friends, but I am on a mission that is not complete.

Re: If I could fucking make myself vomit I would

[bones_of_chaos]

i hear you on that. like 100% how i feel.
i am starting to think that my mission will NEVER be complete...