Introdruction- My World & My Thoughts. My Eyes. My Heart.

[bonesoul]

So this is it. This is where it all begins- at least in formal, concrete text.
I will post my personal beliefs and thoughts, record and mark my progress, publish ideas, ideals, news, rants blah blahh..

I first need to ask,

Poll First Diagnosis
I need to know I'm not alone. I need to know it is not all in my head, that I'm seeking for something invisible, let alone

Comments

[ugly_fetus]

I always feel like that and posted using the poll.

You remind me a lot of myself and I feel like something about us is quite similar.. I have a boyfriend of 2 1/2 - 3 years as well and he also tells me to 'get over myself' and 'some people have real problems'.

♥

In the end though, I feel like it is both.. This world is fucked far beyond eds and perfection however, it's thoroughly fucked that way as well. Sometimes I feel like the constant war struggle I fight is against myself and every other beautiful woman I see or hear about (which feels like everyone sometimes). And I know I will never win and it makes me so depressed to think about and digest and analyze..

[bonesoul]

Thank you for your thoughts and understanding,
it's true sometimes it seems like all the words in the language we speak can't seem to scratch the surface of what's buzzing on inside our mind,
if that makes sense haha. It's hard enough for myself to understand, let alone this man who claims he loves me and doesn't understand why I have such a vendetta against myself.
<3 Keep Strong