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[bonjourmarie]

So yesterday i rang Jem, she was busy having lots of fun so i told her to ring me later. Then i got really upset missing her and was all grouchy with my parents, which triggered the biggest fight with my mum ever

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[tinyponies]

jesus girls are the same everywhere. it sounds like the same thing happened to you as to me. how can someone just stop loving you when you think everything is fine?! and then totally cut you off as a friend as well... its so fucking cruel.

[bonjourmarie]

exactly.
although Jem hasn't cut me off as a friend completely, she still doesn't seem to interested about being one.
i just have no willpower whatsoever, and i say to myself everyday i won't ring her, but i always end up doing so...

[tinyponies]

aww. happy valentines day from me to you, dont feel lonely. even though i know how you feel.

the day she broke up with me, which was only tuesday, i was so hurt and then really drunk and i sent her soo many angry upset texts and left her messages on msn. the next day i messaged her asking to call me with the intent of apologising and trying to talk properly, but she didnt want to talk. so i havent spoken to her at all. its only saturday night now. im going to hold off til wednesday to try and talk. i just need her in my life. ive been trying to distract myself so much because i cant cope. ive been telling myself lies to make myself feel better. i cried for three days and couldnt eat or sleep. the pain is still as intense but im trying to focus on something else.

you seem lovely and im sure there will be others, as im sure there will be others for me, but i know thats not what either of us wants or cares about right now. was she your first girlfriend? how old are you? i'm 19.

[bonjourmarie]

Yes she was. I'm 18, she was 23. :)