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life is harder when you're stupid
I am grasping at everything. I don't understand why I can't have what I want and I can't let go of anything ( Read more... ) -
easing back in
finally scored second date with ridiculously attractive guy I have been forcing myself to text ( Read more... ) -
numbers games
I am as much of myself as I can possibly be, but I am also a reaction to the situation I'm in. In a world where everyone is at the pinnacle of self-awareness, maybe there was more I could have been, but this is me at my most reasonable best and I wish someone would give me a part already. -
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The reason I hate going to PAWS even though THERE ARE TONS OF PUPPIES is because the other volunteers are so effing annoying. There are so many rules that people break all the time BECAUSE THERE ARE SO MANY and who made you the enforcer??? am I hurting you or the dog or some invisible person in the room with me? Please chill and come back when/if ( Read more... ) -
ideas to cling to
I need to believe that as long as I keep focusing on making myself better, the things I want will fall into line. I need this to be true because if it isn't, I don't know how to stay motivated. -
self improvement plan #32097009710
I am taking guitar lessons now until May ( Read more... ) -
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I am having all the trouble in the world getting over this ( Read more... ) -
starting a new year
I've vomited four times already this year. Ummm. Not the greatest opener, I know, but, ummm. Apparently two drinks in three hours was too much today ( Read more... ) -
keeping records
Date 1 of 2015 was brunch today with D (new). It ended in an hour but felt full, and I'm a little confused because he seemed into it enough. Maybe it was too platonic? We'll see if he comes back ( Read more... ) -
i can't believe four days have passed
Started early. Investment in mental health is continuing, and it's a lovely perk that after all of the difficulty, at least it's relatively cheap.
I managed to run some errands and get a haircut before holing myself in for the rest of the day. Gym and planned coding lessons did not happen. Baby steps.