i bet no one reads my ridiculously vague entries ( Read more... )

college thus far, seems to involve punctuated periods of complete enjoyment followed by instances that are emotionally very taxing.  i feel as if i'm a walking contradiction - feeling so out of place at times and then feeling completely immersed in what i'm doing that i just want to crystallize the moment. i prefer the latter but the former seems ( Read more... )

i don't care what anyone says about how u2 is a terrible band etc ..etc..this is a great song with simple universal lyrics..everyone should give it a listen.. it always seems to find it's way back to me

U2 - stuck in a moment you can't get out of

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already ( Read more... )

what a record.. two posts in one day

i thought a lot on the plane today
i'm still trying to get over some deep seated insecurties.

 i'm sitting here eating and waiting to catch my flight back home. with this time on my hands, i've decided to write a somewhat more substantial entry than what i've been writing these past few months. well, for starters, i spent my summer up here at berkeley, taking the second part of ochem hoping to catch up because last semester i decided i ( Read more... )

i'm still here

what a weekend. I went up to Cal this weekend via what was possibly the longest drive of my life to visit friends and also attend a couple job interviews. i'm finally employed, although not for the jobs I was originally interviewed for; it's a staffing job which means i'm going to be doing hours of mind numbing work. this also means i've got to be ( Read more... )

my parents are driving me crazy i really need to get out of here. i remember feeling like this..it's like highschool all over again-the constant nagging and lecturing and the inability to relate or even consider anything i have to say. sometimes i feel selfish for not wanting to spend more time with my parents, but i feel as if the more time i ( Read more... )

interesting things have been brewing as of late. being at home has made me come to the realization that i really do like being a busy person, as neurotic as it may make me. in a half-assed attempt to occupy myself, i'm going to begin guitar lessons. it's going to be so satisfying being able to play the songs i love. that is, assuming i practice and ( Read more... )

freshman year is over and i just realized that i'm packing my life back into a few cardboard boxes wearing the same shirt i did when i first got here in august..how odd..and what a crazy year it was, one that i'll never forget, not the people nor the places nor the feelings..and i know i sound like a douche but really i feel as if i don't want to ( Read more... )