I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said ( Read more... )

well well once again i didnt sleep last night. yah being the hospital for 2 hours last night was definetly not fun. my spleen is swollen once again. but ya know they dont know wats wrong with me. o well. not like it really does matter. ive been thinking a lot lately. and its been like up down up down. and i still believe im not meant to be happy, ( Read more... )

I wanna hate you so bad

But I can't stop this

anymore than you can.

^ if this could be anymore true.....:-/

i was told today they dont know how much longer this will go on..

wow..i kinda wish i could take back the last few days. i would erase what i said and how i felt. i wish i could take back the last 3 years actually. i wish i could go back to 8th grade and have my problems with michael and just be happy heidi again. and then i would accept the open enrollment to riverside and be so happy. and i wouldnt have met the ( Read more... )

yup i was wrong..once again

ok..i feel terrible about my last 2 posts...tommy..i dont kow what to say..i wanna talk to you..i dont know what i feel anymore, and im really confused about you right now...please talk to me...and the rest of you...i dont know..im lost about everything right now..i feel like im all alone on this one and im soo lost..

wow. i just read what i updated yesterday and i feel kinda bad. well i do and i dont. i mean what i said and this time im gonna stick to it. itll b easier when i quit giant eagle and im gone for good. i mean not like what i said means a thing to you or anyone. or even if you or anyone even reads this. i dont know. i have noone to go to anymore. ( Read more... )

ive had it. tommy FUCK YOU! ive put up with your shit for more than 3 years and ive fucking taken all i can handle. there is no way in fucking hell i would EVER tell you another fucking thing. i cant trust you, and you say you cant trust me? yah what the fuck ever. you tell me on fucking time when i have ever betrayed your trust to your face. YAH i ( Read more... )

wow. i did it to myself once again. i dont know how to fucking stop this. i do this everyday and everyfuckingtime. i make myself feel like a loser and i feel so useless and so....i dont even fucking know. ive officially failed at life. ill never be what i want to be...so i guess i should stop trying altogether and save my energy. i dont even know ( Read more... )

wepl i pissed you off again..what else is new. whatever i did well i have an idea..im sorry hun. i didnt mean to upset you. if that means anything but it prolly doesnt. talking to nick and terri tonight makes me see just how wrong i am about you and me. we're so much a like and so different. you mean the world to me, and i mean a small fraction ( Read more... )