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[boogietrain]

its been a really rough couple of weeks. this year i've done a complete 180. i've gone back to school, watched my temper and avoided fighting, stayed away from drugs and cut social ties with the crack community. but sometimes it seems like no matter how much you want to turn your life around and start a new beginning that trouble will always find

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[paul_the_paul]

is it the area you live in that won't really let you escape? i hope you're okay whatever is going on anyway... :(

[boogietrain]

thanks paul. yeah i'm ok ^^ i'm trying to just keep on going cos thats all i can do you know. i found out a few shocking things all at once and it kinda set me back. i started to get over it and then my boyfriend all of a sudden got taken away from me and locked up. it was all a bit sudden. i think that's part of why i let it get to me so bad.

sometimes i blame the area and the people. many times my boyfriend and i have dreamed of running away and starting a new life somewhere no one knows us. but this is my home and too much of my life and love is here. so we deal with the crap that comes with it

[rydiachan]

I'm so sorry about everything that you've been going through, sweetie... you know I love you so much and will stand behind anything you do 100%. If you ever wanna escape, even for a moment, there's always gonna be an open invitation at my house, with a room reserved just for you. *hugs* Love you, hun.

[boogietrain]

thanks sonie i promise i wont be another annoyin hongkie student bum with a monster of a mother

anyway im staying by him but also taking the time apart as a good thing like you said. im gonna focus more on myself meaning school and gettin a car i wont crash (and getting my hair done and a facial omg i cant wait)

thanks for your support it is very important to me

[mzmi]

babe, i realised not long ago to be kind of thankful for the challenges in my life, b/c it is definitely a part of life, and there's no way anyone can have a smooth life w/o any problems..it's wat we need i guess if we wanna learn and make better choices in the future =) that's what i like to think anyway..

and i know i've never realli been in the same situations as you, and it's prolli a lot tougher for you atm b/c it seems like it'll never end, but you know wat? nothing is unreachable if ur determined enough with wat you want :) Life is onli wat you make of it :)

[boogietrain]

thanks nuala i also realised that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, it just depends on your ability to see it and work towards it. you're right, anything worth achieving in your life doesn't come easy

the thing that sucks is that while i have been making what i believe to be the right choices and have been building a life i can be proud of, a lot of sad things that happen are due to circumstances and bad luck. i honestly believe that trouble follows some people and doesnt let them sleep easy. i guess time will tell if i really have made the right decision

[boogietrain]

also i'm sorry i won't be making it to your birthday bbq. i'm visiting phuc tomorrow morning and then chen has home leave for the day (meaning he gets to spend from 9am to 9pm out of prison... as long as he's with his guardian ie his mum hahaha). anyway happy 22nd and i hope you have a wonderful time. i'm sorry i haven't been able to attend so many of your birthdays and gatherings, i feel really bad and i hope to make it up to you by going out heaps later on! hahaha

[curtis_]

sorry i've no advice to give, because i have never been through anything close to what you are going through. but yeah, staying optimistic through a difficult period can be .. well... very difficult. :(
i hope things work out for you!!