youngjae/daehyun: 魔鬼中的天使 (angel among devils)
魔鬼中的天使 (angel among devils)
youngjae/daehyun
pg-13, angst
魔鬼中的天使 (angel among devils)
把太細的神經割掉
(rid the sensitivity in me)
會不會比較睡得著
(will that make sleep come easier)
我的心有座灰色的監牢
(deep inside my heart there's a gray prison cell)
關著一票黑色念頭在吼叫
(within it a dark thought is roaring)
this is the fifth time youngjae's been to the hospital. he doesn't remember how he got there, but he's pretty sure it's himchan-hyung again. after a certain amount of cuts he's bound to pass out, and after so many times he knows that himchan-hyung will always check on him every 20 minutes or so.
youngjae doesn't remember much of everything anyways. but he knows that he likes it when he passes out. because that is the only place where he doesn't have to cry anymore. because that's the only place where daehyun will still sit next to him, give him a warm, bright smile where his eyes would disappear. because that's the only place where daehyun would still whisper those three words into his ears, like the kind of lovers they were supposed to be.
youngjae thinks that when he gets out this time, he should maybe try a little harder.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
把太硬的脾氣抽掉
(rip the stubbornness in me)
會不會比較被明瞭
(will i be understood better)
你可以重重把我給打倒
(you can bring me down hard)
但是想都別想我求饒
(but do not expect pleading)
he sees him everywhere, that's the thing. he sees him walking down the streets. he sees him sitting on the bench in the park. he sees him in the restaurant eating plates after plates. he sees him in his bed, warmed by the thick blankets and hair tousled in a beautiful, beautiful mess.
but even when he walked a little faster, listened a little closer, blinked a little more, and caressed a little softer, daehyun is always quicker.
he has gotten very good at disappearing since the last time youngjae saw him in bed with junhong.
but that's okay. because two can play this game, and youngjae never lose a game.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
隨人去拼湊我們的故事
(let others piece our story)
我懶得解釋 愛怎麼解釋
(i don't care to explain, love cannot be explained)
當誰想看我碎裂的樣子
(whoever wants to see my battered self)
我已經又頑強 重生一次
(i have obstinately lived again)
himchan-hyung is always talking. he could be talking about the weather or the news or celebrity gossip, and youngjae would always just nod and pretend to understand, because that's the only way of shutting him up.
today himchan-hyung didn't talk as much. he sat down next to youngjae's hospital bed, and he looked tired, so tired. it doesn't suit himchan-hyung, because he's always happy and cheerful and smiling - it's a different kind of smile, not the kind of bright smile that daehyun likes to smile, but it's equally attractive (though youngjae would never say that to daehyun, because then he would frown and scowl and pout and youngjae would melt from the adorableness).
himchan-hyung rested his hand on top of youngjae's, and they stayed like that for a while, listening to the sound of rain and thunder and heartbreaks. and when himchan-hyung opened his mouth to speak, youngjae closed his eyes and pretend to sleep, because it doesn't mater what himchan-hyung says.
it doesn't matter because youngjae loves daehyun still, and daehyun loves youngjae back too.
(because he has too. because he needs to.)
你是魔鬼中的天使
(you are the angel among devils)
所以送我心碎的方式
(your gift to me is heartbreak)
是讓我笑到最後一秒為止
(allowing me to laugh till the end)
才發現自己胸口插了一把刀子
(only to find a knife in my heart)
it's a monday when youngjae woke up in the hospital, and now it's another monday where youngjae is leaving the hospital (though he has a feeling he might be coming back very soon).
himchan-hyung offered him to stay at his apartment, but youngjae refused, because no one wants to see himchan-hyung and yongguk-hyung getting it on (oh god, it's like watching your parents make out).
so youngjae went home, back to his and daehyun's apartment, where most of daehyun's space had been occupied by trash. so youngjae cleans up, because daehyun's coming back and he would be annoyed as fuck if he sees his living space a mess. so youngjae cleans up good, because daehyun may not be coming back today, or tommorow, or next week or next month, but he's going to come back, someday.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
你是魔鬼中的天使
(you are the angel among devils)
讓恨變成太俗氣的事
(let hate become rustic)
從眼裡流下謝謝兩個字
(two words of thank you flow from my eyes)
儘管叫我瘋子 不准叫我傻子
(call me crazy, but never call me an idiot)
daehyun hasn't been home for a while.
daehyun hasn't clean the room. daehyun hasn't bought any groceries. daehyun hasn't even made the bed.
but that's okay, because youngjae's good at these kind of things, so he can take care of them just fine.
so youngjae cleaned the room (he made sure to leave a space for daehyun to put his clothes and shoes and all of this things). so youngjae bought all the groceries (he made sure to stock up all of daehyun's favorite snacks, he even bought cheesecake). so youngjae made the bed (he made sure the pillows are extra fluffy because that's how daehyun likes it).
it's a monday when daehyun comes through the door, soaking wet and carrying a small bag.
youngjae already grabbed the towels and began drying him, because he doesn't want daehyun to get sick, because daehyun is extra whiny when he's sick.
"welcome home." he whispered, and so what if he's crying a little, he's just thankful that daehyun came back home.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
(because youngjae was never permanent, and that's okay. it's okay.)
author's note:
omg please don't kill daehyun even though he's a jerkface lol jk but he really is
inspired by this song. the lyrics are sooooo good :)
go check it out ^^
not beta'ed, all mistakes are mine :)
youngjae/daehyun
pg-13, angst
魔鬼中的天使 (angel among devils)
把太細的神經割掉
(rid the sensitivity in me)
會不會比較睡得著
(will that make sleep come easier)
我的心有座灰色的監牢
(deep inside my heart there's a gray prison cell)
關著一票黑色念頭在吼叫
(within it a dark thought is roaring)
this is the fifth time youngjae's been to the hospital. he doesn't remember how he got there, but he's pretty sure it's himchan-hyung again. after a certain amount of cuts he's bound to pass out, and after so many times he knows that himchan-hyung will always check on him every 20 minutes or so.
youngjae doesn't remember much of everything anyways. but he knows that he likes it when he passes out. because that is the only place where he doesn't have to cry anymore. because that's the only place where daehyun will still sit next to him, give him a warm, bright smile where his eyes would disappear. because that's the only place where daehyun would still whisper those three words into his ears, like the kind of lovers they were supposed to be.
youngjae thinks that when he gets out this time, he should maybe try a little harder.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
把太硬的脾氣抽掉
(rip the stubbornness in me)
會不會比較被明瞭
(will i be understood better)
你可以重重把我給打倒
(you can bring me down hard)
但是想都別想我求饒
(but do not expect pleading)
he sees him everywhere, that's the thing. he sees him walking down the streets. he sees him sitting on the bench in the park. he sees him in the restaurant eating plates after plates. he sees him in his bed, warmed by the thick blankets and hair tousled in a beautiful, beautiful mess.
but even when he walked a little faster, listened a little closer, blinked a little more, and caressed a little softer, daehyun is always quicker.
he has gotten very good at disappearing since the last time youngjae saw him in bed with junhong.
but that's okay. because two can play this game, and youngjae never lose a game.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
隨人去拼湊我們的故事
(let others piece our story)
我懶得解釋 愛怎麼解釋
(i don't care to explain, love cannot be explained)
當誰想看我碎裂的樣子
(whoever wants to see my battered self)
我已經又頑強 重生一次
(i have obstinately lived again)
himchan-hyung is always talking. he could be talking about the weather or the news or celebrity gossip, and youngjae would always just nod and pretend to understand, because that's the only way of shutting him up.
today himchan-hyung didn't talk as much. he sat down next to youngjae's hospital bed, and he looked tired, so tired. it doesn't suit himchan-hyung, because he's always happy and cheerful and smiling - it's a different kind of smile, not the kind of bright smile that daehyun likes to smile, but it's equally attractive (though youngjae would never say that to daehyun, because then he would frown and scowl and pout and youngjae would melt from the adorableness).
himchan-hyung rested his hand on top of youngjae's, and they stayed like that for a while, listening to the sound of rain and thunder and heartbreaks. and when himchan-hyung opened his mouth to speak, youngjae closed his eyes and pretend to sleep, because it doesn't mater what himchan-hyung says.
it doesn't matter because youngjae loves daehyun still, and daehyun loves youngjae back too.
(because he has too. because he needs to.)
你是魔鬼中的天使
(you are the angel among devils)
所以送我心碎的方式
(your gift to me is heartbreak)
是讓我笑到最後一秒為止
(allowing me to laugh till the end)
才發現自己胸口插了一把刀子
(only to find a knife in my heart)
it's a monday when youngjae woke up in the hospital, and now it's another monday where youngjae is leaving the hospital (though he has a feeling he might be coming back very soon).
himchan-hyung offered him to stay at his apartment, but youngjae refused, because no one wants to see himchan-hyung and yongguk-hyung getting it on (oh god, it's like watching your parents make out).
so youngjae went home, back to his and daehyun's apartment, where most of daehyun's space had been occupied by trash. so youngjae cleans up, because daehyun's coming back and he would be annoyed as fuck if he sees his living space a mess. so youngjae cleans up good, because daehyun may not be coming back today, or tommorow, or next week or next month, but he's going to come back, someday.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
你是魔鬼中的天使
(you are the angel among devils)
讓恨變成太俗氣的事
(let hate become rustic)
從眼裡流下謝謝兩個字
(two words of thank you flow from my eyes)
儘管叫我瘋子 不准叫我傻子
(call me crazy, but never call me an idiot)
daehyun hasn't been home for a while.
daehyun hasn't clean the room. daehyun hasn't bought any groceries. daehyun hasn't even made the bed.
but that's okay, because youngjae's good at these kind of things, so he can take care of them just fine.
so youngjae cleaned the room (he made sure to leave a space for daehyun to put his clothes and shoes and all of this things). so youngjae bought all the groceries (he made sure to stock up all of daehyun's favorite snacks, he even bought cheesecake). so youngjae made the bed (he made sure the pillows are extra fluffy because that's how daehyun likes it).
it's a monday when daehyun comes through the door, soaking wet and carrying a small bag.
youngjae already grabbed the towels and began drying him, because he doesn't want daehyun to get sick, because daehyun is extra whiny when he's sick.
"welcome home." he whispered, and so what if he's crying a little, he's just thankful that daehyun came back home.
(because he has to. because he needs to.)
(because youngjae was never permanent, and that's okay. it's okay.)
author's note:
omg please don't kill daehyun even though he's a jerkface lol jk but he really is
inspired by this song. the lyrics are sooooo good :)
go check it out ^^
not beta'ed, all mistakes are mine :)