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[book_of_sick]

July 18th 2006 = failure @ first attempt @ conception (after m/c). 
July 18th 2006 also = me being bitchy and depressed & feeling like my uterus is a complete failure ****
This cold sore isn't helping things either.

Clerks 2 Friday!

I need a fucking beer! AND NOW!!!!

Comments

[jsin00]

*ahem* I have been storing babies for a few weeks now so if you need any help I can come lend a hump.

[clobberin_time]

I don't think that'll be necessary. Thanks.

[jsin00]

I am just joking around, I am very bored at work.

I am well aware she is married, sorry not trying to offend, just trying to be a smart ass.

[book_of_sick]

i understood it to be a joke but considering the recent circumstances, i do believe it will take some time before he / I laugh at this kind of thing.

Anyway, you are a smart ass!

[rosey27]

don't be so hard on yourself! your body has gone through a rough time physically, emotionally, and hormonally, so it's probably going to take it awhile before it get backs on track. that's not your fault, though, it would be the same for anyone.

[book_of_sick]

I know this...it just feels so bad inside. I mean, it's just a reminder that I am defective in some way. Or whatever.

All I know is I am going to have to "let go" like I did right before I got pregnant. I have to be like I was before: "If it happens, it happens. If not, then whatever." I can't go back to being stressed out every month. It's not in my "new" nature.

[rosey27]

i think that sounds like good advice for yourself. you can't beat yourself up every month, because it is definitely not healthy to do so.