okay then -- i'm not in school so all i do is post to livejournal?

[bookwyrm17]

Still trying to decide why I post to this. I think the closest answer to the truth is: I can only follow through on writing anything if I know someone will glance at it? or if I can imagine someone reading it, even if nobody does? it's not a reaction from anybody that I want. It is the license to imagine that someone is reading this. I don't know

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[purplemoocow]

I know what you mean about hopelessness. Every day here I feel that. Same thing with not fitting in at college. I haven't felt secure about that stuff since the end of senior year. I didn't fit in at IU for the reasons that made me transfer to Penn, but now that I'm here, I don't think I fit in HERE and want to go back.

It's hard too, because I feel like people here are already forming their little cliques, and I was so desperate to make multiple friends that I don't really fit into any clique. So other people have their inside jokes and their friend groups, but I'm just kind of perpetually bouncing around.

I know that last paragraph wasn't relevant to your post, but my point is that I understand some of what you're going through. And I'm really good at listening without passing judgment whenever that's needed (or I can pass judgment if you so desire, but I didn't think you'd doubt my ability to do that).

[bookwyrm17]

It's so frustrating when everybody else relates to everyone else so well with seemingly no effort :(
We'll get through this somehow i guess...