Living in Fear and Denial

[bootzbooblue]

For the first time in over 2 months my dad called me....I was to scared to answer the phone. He didn't leave me a message.       It's funny, he has never been there for me, always walked away, or had somewhere better to be. And I'm scared he might say something to hint to the fact that I  have hurt him and that would be unbarable to me.....I know

Comments

[cookie24monster]

Heather you ahve always shown your self to be so strong, almost untouchable its crazy to see this side of you but i have to admit its nice to know that you too are human. Your a good person at heart and thats where not being able to hurt him comes from dont change that just go on and keep your head up high. Trust me one day he will realise what hes missed out on and wish he could go back.
It sounds like you just need to let yourself break down and just let it all out and honestly it sounds like your not far from that point. Theres nothing wrong with that, the strongest person in the world will cry sometime. We're all human and we will all break. Just know that its better to be real and be a mess then it is to be fake.
Im sorry about our past i know that i have done somethigns and definatly said somethings that have caused you hurt, i hope that someday all will be forgiven. Anyways I just want you to know that alot of people have faith in you and that you are truely an amazing person. Keep your head up.
Chris