And my heart is breaking. Would you hear me baby? As the tears are longing for what it use to be.
"is this what you want?
it's eight o'clock. i'm nodding off.
starlight is stealing my heart tonight.
bar fight but i won't be there.
and i've tried all this before.
you swing and you miss
late night and you're driving me crazy.
wait 'till you find this ain't the life you want to lead. regular.
every night. regular.
but i won't fight you.
what if i don't care?"
-benton falls
So, as of right now I'm moving to California to live with my dad after this semester ends, to finish my school year there. I suppose, over this next month, I would have a lot to consider and could easily make the decision to stay but nothing is making me- no one is keeping me here.. A couple of nights ago I honestly hit bottom. And for those past nights it was crucial for me to feel loved by him the most, the most he had ever shown. This unfortunately also happened to be the time I had to realize that he never loved me as much as he said or thought he did. I cannot express in words the emotions I'm presently feeling. My world has literally been turned upside down and thrown to the fucking ground in a matter of days. So yeah I hit bottom, but as they say, there's nowhere else to go but up. California here i come..