So... you know how I posted a couple of months ago saying 'whee! I am off meds and all is AMAZING AND GREAT!'? Yeeaaaaaaaaaaah.... slightly premature, hence my long silence
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I should probably start off with the reminder that this is the ljer previously known as keewick in case you missed my initial post about the name change and are all who the heck is this darlulu chick
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I remember but thanks for the prompt! :) It must be hard changing names...
Thank you for thinking of me! :) It was scary for a while. Because I couldn't help but notice the physical symptoms, I was also aware of the emotional ones, monitoring them... it's still an adjustment now to get used to how I react to things. I cry very easily, but it doesn't necessarily last long. I am much better at not attaching to such moments or thoughts. But the physical-emotional state for a few weeks was one of hyperarousal or something--my heart thumping, pulse racing, and near nausea all the time. Thank god it's 'quieter' now!!
Mmm, yeah... I hope we both find vidding inspiration again! :) I'm glad you found a piece you enjoyed making! I'll check it out... feels like eons since I vidded... but I'm sure something will come round again...
Good to hear from you - sorry that there were more side effects, but its huge that you stayed off the meds despite it. Having been on and off for years, I know the temptation when you're feeling crap. So go you!
Being on a fannish low sucks too; I didn't think I would ever feel strongly enough about anything to get pulled back in again, but it happened and while it's a little different than my obsession with SV and HP, it feels good to have that fannish blood pumping again.
I miss SV too, but only the first three seasons make me crave it. I keep wanting to go back and fix everything that went wrong after that :-)
Haha, yeah, I know... my missing of Smallville definitely ISN'T missing the later seasons (except maybe some Oliver sparkle).
What are you into now? (Forgive me for not knowing--this is my first step back onto LJ/DW for months and months so I'm not up with everyone's entries.)
Thanks for the meds sympathy--yeah it's been interesting to watch myself through the process, and only belatedly see how strong--or at least clear underneath--I actually was (at the time you don't feel strong at all!).
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Thank you for thinking of me! :) It was scary for a while. Because I couldn't help but notice the physical symptoms, I was also aware of the emotional ones, monitoring them... it's still an adjustment now to get used to how I react to things. I cry very easily, but it doesn't necessarily last long. I am much better at not attaching to such moments or thoughts. But the physical-emotional state for a few weeks was one of hyperarousal or something--my heart thumping, pulse racing, and near nausea all the time. Thank god it's 'quieter' now!!
Mmm, yeah... I hope we both find vidding inspiration again! :) I'm glad you found a piece you enjoyed making! I'll check it out... feels like eons since I vidded... but I'm sure something will come round again...
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Being on a fannish low sucks too; I didn't think I would ever feel strongly enough about anything to get pulled back in again, but it happened and while it's a little different than my obsession with SV and HP, it feels good to have that fannish blood pumping again.
I miss SV too, but only the first three seasons make me crave it. I keep wanting to go back and fix everything that went wrong after that :-)
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What are you into now? (Forgive me for not knowing--this is my first step back onto LJ/DW for months and months so I'm not up with everyone's entries.)
Thanks for the meds sympathy--yeah it's been interesting to watch myself through the process, and only belatedly see how strong--or at least clear underneath--I actually was (at the time you don't feel strong at all!).
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