not you, my fever melts you sweating down, my skin a medicated quiet next to you. which is to say: you called and i did come, i came crashing incandescent to you all over me while i watched my eyelids burning. my city, my flames. not smoke but just fire & fog. deeper straight to my neck and i oblige oh harder i have to, this heat. i am only paper- ( Read more... )

crash & burn and crash the party & burn it bright to the floor and never ( Read more... )

we will be unravelled, won't we. unwound, stripped down to our discarded parts of speech and the secrets i've been handing out like spare change. we're already complete. i had to sink my teeth into your arm to tell you. i could just sit here with my palms pressed between my knees (thinking you know what i need) but for now - before they find out - ( Read more... )

i sleep between the feet of the bathtub - not drowning but draining, exhausted and dry. i dream between breaths and my rapid eyes, i dream you blooming and earthbound, pregnant as my - punctuation, hesitation - pauses. your roots spreading like sixteen x-ray frames per second and i was curling all around those corners, curving, between the slope of ( Read more... )

so the rain came, you know, and i had to be both the calm before and the shock of the storm - i had to sponge-soak all of it into my skin. coffee, black; cigarettes, unfiltered. something so simple: but by the end of the day i was just trying to find softer ways to say "you're breaking my heart".

you aren't as simply gorgeous as you should be; sweltering august afternoons and newbury street shining insincerity all over my ripped pants and my unwashed hair. and i hold it over you, you, you aren't as simple as you should be. and so the heat stands stock-still despite me & the way you watch me walk by & i am almost convinced that i could just ( Read more... )

talking to the tiles of the bathroom floor: convinced, convicted, guilty. pleading my case to the plumbing like the pipes would defend me. the light bulbs whisper flourescently: love me, let me leave the ground. and i tell them if i remember in the morning then i'll try to write it down but right now, right. no, i'm looking for redemption between ( Read more... )

i was looking for the smallest truths, like my headache and the twitch in my eyelid. like my pregnancy tests in public bathrooms. like my dreams of elevators overseas where you followed me, floor to floor. i ran across town to save your time so save me, i thought, everybody knows. my past like gunpowder and your face like a fuse, and your fingers. ( Read more... )

if i fall from grace & nobody's watching, have i REALLY hit rock bottom ? i've been falling for DAYS, haven't you been watching ? i've been waiting for the war in my subway windows, watching you watch me. i feel better than ever and i feel better than everyone and i just want to make you feel guilty for what i've forgotten. for what i've FORSAKEN ( Read more... )

oh, you'll tell my story, but not till i sell you your revolution and call you a cab. one day you'll tell the story of how i put the weight on my lap instead of my shoulders. it's that nausea comes in waves - defend me ! - it's that. i never gave my name and you have been watching me turn out the lights and you have been watching me unfold my ( Read more... )