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[fractalcloud]

I don't know how to deal with the random feelings of paranoia I have about my relationship. I am constantly thinking my boyfriend is thinking about his ex, thinks I'm boring, or is only with me because he feels like he has to be. And then I'll do stupid things like get really drunk and try to make-out with his friend (who is a girl), or accuse him

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[inanna31]

Just wanted to let you know that I relate.

Stability is a good thing to want. And we all deserve it. So don't feel too guilty... I mean, you can't help your emotions.

[nineveh_rains]

We need a lot of attention and reassurance. I hope you can find a way to tell him and that you both are able to work things out.

:)

[thisisfuktup]

i know we sure do like our reassurances but even that's not enough sometimes. i could be told every second of every day that the person will always be here for me and i'll still have it in my head that there is no way in hell this person won't run someday.

but i've also come to realize everyone i know has these thoughts. not just borderlines. some of my most stable friends still fear abandonment or not being good enough. everyone wants the security of lasting love in their life. loving and being loved is pretty much what everyone lives for, i believe.

we just obsess over it more because we have such a hard time with rejection. we want everyone to love us which makes us try too hard and usually making us look like a total fool!

i've learned to relax anymore. if someone leaves me then their love was never true in the first place. it's a bummer but love never fails and the right person will go through anything with you.