janice has one more chemo session- thank god... she keeps whining about it at dinner, it's a little irritating. i'm starting to feel the holidays (not in a good way) it's hard seeing her like this and listening to it while i'm thinking of my mom. i want to be more sympathetic, but all i can think of is "at least you didn't die" and i keep ( Read more... )

been working on icons for months without posting any
still have more i want to make
up to about 313 of 'em...
lovin' the jack daniels right now
that's right, drinkin in the afternoon

i kinda wish southern california would stop trying to kill itself. emo bastard. the last santa anna killed me, then i got sick, and now... fire. i miss breathing. haven't had to evacuate yet, but know a few people who have. my lips are cracking from the dryness. i haven't had any energy for about three weeks now. sleepy sleepy sleepy. i'm ( Read more... )

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so, in a roundabout way (looking for pictures of divine to make icons) i came across a pro anorexia community... people talking about how to get rid of the shakes from not eating, how they're 6 feet tall, weigh 96 pounds and feel that they need to lose more. in a different community i found this. sad shit.


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way to tired to exist when i got home this morning. so i went back to bed. i need to drink some water, but we don't have any that's clean... i've only had a diet pepsi to drink today. picked up the living room and cleaned the kitchen today. holly damn, was it messy. i wish people *coughjanicecough* would wipe down the stove when she's done ( Read more... )

so janice comes home today *twirlsflag* oh boy! i'm tired of cleaning up after people. if you come to my house, pick up after yourself. and heaven forbid someone other than me touch a dish. thank you to my tuesday night dishwashers. david and i had a little chat about how to deal with things when janice starts chemo. apparently i need to make ( Read more... )

it's nice and chilly this morning. i love it. there's something about cool, overcast mornings that just work for me. i actually slept for a little bit last night. thought i was going to be sick as i laying in bed, and i have those weird sunspot, floater things in my vision. seeing stars now. it's like when i got my concussion when i smacked ( Read more... )

damn, it's hot. heat is only worth it if you have ac or a pool. i tried out that veet stuff (like nair, but comes with a neat little razorless widget thingy) but i guess you're not supposed to go swimming for at least 24 hours after you use it. today would be a great beach day except for the 2 million drunk broz that are already there. last ( Read more... )

*deepbreath* thursday *sighbeatsheadagainsttablewhilethrowinglaptopincanyon* (multitasking nici)