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[boredominity]

I woke up this morning weighing 49.1 kilograms. With a BMI of 17.5 I now classify as 'anorexic' again. It's not a label I want. I think when I see Andrew on Wednesday the shit is going to hit the proverbial fan. We had an arrangement that I wouldn't go under a BMI of 19.5: 54.5 kilograms. I'm 5.5kg below that now. The thing is that I don't

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[hope_is_swift]

what you do now is realise that you're in the middle of a giant relapse, & probably drowning in denial. hannah, you need to get yourself the fuck out of this, that's what you need to do. i know it's hard, & i know it's not as easy as 1, 2, 3. but of COURSE you feel fine & like life is going grand. don't your think anorexia works like this? as if it would make you miserable & sick & lonely the moment you drop some weight. you'd stop, if it worked like that. anorexia is so much smarter, so much more cunning than you will ever be. & it's got you right where it wants you. again. it's not your fault, & i'm not blaming you for anything, but i wouldn't be a friend if i just sat here & commiserated with you.

i love you.
xx

[anonymous]

Choose whichever one which will get you the most attention and go with that. It's what you've always done in the past & and no matter how much you've proclaimed to change and to "do things differently this time around", you've always gone with the most attention-seeking option.