well hmm hmm hmm i want to start off by saying i hate journals sometimes. i feel like its the easy way out for some people. instead of saying how they feel they just type it here and hope the other person reads it and gives a damn. but that person doesnt cause she has done no wrong... so anyway on a brighter note i got a new cell phone its shitty ( Read more... )

i dont even know the last thing i wrote about but ill just start from today. well i missed a day of school already. i slept all day. i wore myself out really bad. like i havent slept more than 7 hours since like the second week of august. it just sucks because its my senior year and i dont have any time to do anything fun. and friday steves going ( Read more... )

wo0o0o well its been awhile since i wrote. let me see well i started band camp and thats basically what i do now and when im done i hang out with steve. It's not that bad trhis year im acually having some fun jonathon and i are closer and i've gotten so much closer with jen and kaity its super.well last week after band i basically did nothing i was ( Read more... )

hm hm hm. what have i been up tp. friday we went to warped tour it was alright kind of a waste of money but still fun.well this weekend wasnt that great i had to stay at my grandparents but steve came and hung out there haha. then saturday we went out to dinner with steves dad i was glad i got to go. then sunday i had work and yseterday steve came ( Read more... )

alright then its been awhile since i updated this. i was busy with myspace. so let me see we'll start from friday.well im having a brain fart. On friday all i can remember is me and steve went out to breakfast like we always do on fridays then that night....oh yeah i slept over angelas it was fun we talked for like 5 hours it was nuts. then ( Read more... )

alrighty then where do i start. oh yeah im alot better now since the last time i wrote. i mean i figured out that ill never be happy because if its not boyfriends or family its always friends. but anyway so me and steve had a fight on saturday over something really stupid and because people basically didnt mind there own business i find out but oh ( Read more... )

man i am so unhappy with my life its really sad. i dont feel well either. I slept from 11:30 last night til 1. And then when i finally wake up im getting yelled at. I dont get it over my sats scores like i can control that. i have to now take a sat course in august and some days before band camp. she says i dont care about anything. i got yelled at ( Read more... )

well what do i do....oh yeah i sleep. like all day. when steve has work i just sleep to almost 1 get up take a shower and wait to go to work. its sad i just dont like doing stuff during the day. and its weird cause i have a job thats at night im stupid. so yesterday i acually woke up at 730 because me and steve were suppose to go to ryce's but he ( Read more... )

i have nothing that interesting to write. yesterday i had work all day in the rain it was boring i had like 5 customers. then i went to my grandmoms for dinner and my cousins were there so i forgot the ones cd so i came all the way home to get them. later we came home and i forgot my ice cream in her freezer so all the way back to morrisiville. yup ( Read more... )

yeah im back to normal. i am so sorry steve to even do that to you. i know you think or thought i didnt love you anymore but i don maybe even more and everythings perfect . im acually waiting for him to get back from new york. yesterday he left and i was just gonna do nothing yesterday or last night but i did. i said i wasnt gonna answer the phone ( Read more... )