So I had a thought. Scary, I know. This summer has to be better, there has to be a change. I always say tomorrow and next week and next year things will get better or things will be different, and they never are. Life has been pretty shitty lately, I'm not gonna lie. And I knew it had to be that way. I knew things had to hit rock bottom ( Read more... )

Somewhere along the line, I lost focus. I lost focus on what I want who I am and suffered because of it. I used to have the strongest sense of self of anyone I knew, I had conviction in spaids, and I had a plan - or some semblance of one - for my future. Now I don't know what I want. I never feel the same thing from one hour to the next. I ( Read more... )

Here's the info for my grandfather, Thomas Lambe, if anyone wants it:

The wakes:
Reiwert's Memorial Home
Saturday 7-9 and Sunday 2-4, 7-9
187 South Washington Ave.
Bergenfield, NJ 07621
(201)-384-0700

The funeral:
St. John's Church
Monday 10 AM
Washington Ave. ((same street as the funeral home))
Bergenfield, NJ

Patty's dad died. And it's shitty, and I feel bad, but I don't really know what to think. I thought I was done going to wakes and dealing with all of this. It's sad, yeah, but I'm not like broken up about it. I'm also glad I can't make it to the wake because I don't think I could deal right now. I'm barely staying afloat right now as it is ( Read more... )

Me: so I'm kinda worried for myself ( Read more... )

I'm fully legal now, woooo!!

You Are 28 Years Old
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*big stupid grin*

I got to see Pete yesterday. : )

Oh man, tonight = best night of the semester to date.

*happy sigh*

I know everyone's been saying this, but believe it through and through when I say that I need this vacation more than anything right now. It's the best thing that could happen to me. I need time to stop for a little, instead of hurtling forward with me struggling along behind, trying desperately to catch up with it ( Read more... )