absence

[borne]

I can't really explain why I haven't been here for 3 and a half months. Maybe during this time I have lost my thirst for writing, or maybe during this time real life has consumed me. I used to think that allowing imagination to consume you was unhealthy but looks like neither extreme is desirable. I have to thank the 2 people who left comments

Comments

[imcoolsilly]

I understood this entry so well. Partly because during the past few months I've realized some of the same things you have. Change, though very rapid, mostly occurs in the one person who finds it peculiar. Many times others changing is not the case, because the only person who is truly changing is you. About two weeks time before I found your journal, (which by the way, really made me think about how beautiful writing really is) I lost a boy who I thought I loved. Placing my heart completely in his hands, I was faced with the fact that this boy fell in love with another girl who I knew very well since a young age. It’s a true fact that many of the times we really do “toss ourselves into the arms of a loved one..only to find out he is not.” …sometimes without even realizing it. It’s a spontaneous moment that catches us off guard and without notice we can either end up infatuated, or we can end up crushed. I look forward to reading more of your entries, and hope that writing continues to flow for you, for I enjoy reading it.

[borne]

i'm so sorry to hear about the boy, and i hope by now you're not feeling too bothered about it. what i always ask myself is how do i know i love this person? for somehow, i feel like i've lost my love for this boy i've known for many years, and it scares me to think this way - i have no idea if it's a phase or something that has indeed changed for good.

[kuukiventomu]

Welcome back. :)

I often think about going somewhere to find out how it would be to start things from a new point of view. Would it make past more present or more surreal?

[borne]

sometimes i wished there was actually the freedom to do that, to step back and see things differently. i often find though, with the benefit of hindsight that i could never believe how the past actually happened, so if i had to pick, then i would say yes it becomes more surreal.

how have you been? :)

[kuukiventomu]

Busy with so many projects (work related things like organizing a live action role play etc.) but also so in love with Spring! :)