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[bosantibe]

Still alive, yes. Every time I've felt there was something to say I kind of glossed over it. My week of vacation. Meh. My burgeoning seasonal depression yet again? Faugh! My new laptop? Whatever. My apathy is so strong now I swear it's a miracle I've done the dishes in a month. Not sure if I've just checked out, into Chicago, or if I'm

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[arcanusvitae]

So that's what's been going on. But what exactly is a user personality?

-2trick

[bosantibe]

A user personality is usually characterized by the type of person who doesn't mind letting others make sacrifices for him/her. Someone willing to let you pay for dinner or drinks but not likely to offer. Someone who keeps certain people around only because they are useful, that sort of thing. For years I considered this friend fun to hang out with, likely to be understanding of my thoughts, but not someone who actually gives a shit. Then here lately, bam, complete turnaround. He even calls me here in Chicago fairly regularly. Neat.

I've been around a lot of users. Sometimes I gloss over it, but other times I avoid those people. My father... yeah, we don't speak much. Some of my friends, though, I can sense make divisions in their minds for those whom they keep around for convenience and those they actually care about. I find it unhealthy, but I'd not be the best friend myself if I ignored everyone who lived a way I disagreed with, la?

[kiddo43]

Hats and acarves in Chicago are a definate must.

What's up with the user friend? Why is his situation something so distasteful?

[bosantibe]

Nothing, really. He's okay, just full of self-hatred and more for other people, which makes it easier for him to live with how shitty his orientation in the world can be. And he's an alcoholic, but none of that really applies. It's mostly the fact that he's kind of stuck and it's easier for him to treat other people like commodities than not, which isn't what he really wants to do... but, it still happens. I ignore people, so the same thing happens, basically. It's complicated, but we have empathy. You know?

[kiddo43]

Im not entirely sure I understand what you mean but I do understand the empathy.

[bosantibe]

Well, it's complicated. I think I'm too close to it to accurately describe how I feel about this, but this guy and I are a lot alike. We're both kind of sons of bitches in little ways... big ways. So, I've always been aware of this and he's never really given a shit about me in any practical way until recently, but suddenly there's a major turn-around. At one point he'd refer to me as a very good friend or a true brother or that sort of thing, but if I didn't see or talk to him for six months then so be it. Now, he's kind of seen through himself and realized that, hey, that guy's actually my friend. It's weird for me, because I kind of approach people the same way. I'll love anyone, but usually there's a huge distance between myself and others, you know? I think the only real difference between him and me is that I don't pretend to like people that I don't; I sometimes treat them neutrally, which for me is ideal because I think there's no reason to be malicious towards others without a discernible cause, but I don't accept it