mmm. best dinner ever- tomato soup and peanut butter sandwhich. i was going to cook fish tonight, but i was tired (again) because the pigeons (again) kept waking me up ( Read more... )

Just me, ranting about another good day. I finished my second gating system and await the okay to start dipping in the ceramic slurry. I read a bit, drew a bit, and also started working on a relief that i've been thinking about doing for a while. I also worked tonight. forgoed the gym today, but walked to and from school (1/2 hour each way), and ( Read more... )

Alrighty- had a good day today. I made it to the gym, grabbed my midterm (a staggering 75%, but I'm still dropping the class), finished one of two gating systems, and discovered that chapters has nothing in the way of bookbinding instruction. But, der, I should probably check the massive ART SCHOOL LIBRARY of OCAD. They most likely will have ( Read more... )

blowing the leftover vomit out of my nose. excellent ( Read more... )

Okay. So. I definitely screwed up this weekend in terms of the eating disorder. Which is nuts, because I haven't done that for about a month. I'm pretty sure all of this not knowing what the fuck I'm doing with school triggered it, and now I am in panic/starvation mode again ( Read more... )

Today I went out to the creton centre and purchased myself a wardrobe of sweatpants and hoodies to hide in. Seriously. I can go an entire week without wearing the same article of clothing more than once. Most excellent ( Read more... )

So, apparently I can't knit more than five rows without quitting, ripping it all apart, and starting (or not for several hours) again. I have zero concentration. I'm pissed off constantly. Oh yeah. And I haven't done ANYTHING for anyone for christmas besides purchase an Xbox game for my sister which she may or may not enjoy ( Read more... )

I won- once today. I went running instead of throwing up.

Fuck that was hard.

I need all sorts of therapist when I get back to TO.

And after a recent anne-urism, I need to check if I 'have' OCD...thank you for that.

My complete lack of concentration seems to become more apparent with each passing day at home. At school, I thought all my inability to DO anything was due to the fact that everthing I was supposed to be DOING was school work, but now that I'm home I think, I'd like to read, or write or draw or practice the piano or knit or sit and watch tv, and I ( Read more... )

And there it went, that sense of 'well being'. It lasted all of four fifths of the day.

I am so unbelievably fucked. And I want to throw up.