one day jo kwon visits nichkhun while he is in his room: bored, tired, and thinking too much about everything and saying nothing when jo kwon walks into the doorway.
it's only hard to think of something to say when you have to say it to break through the hard armour of silence. "hey," jo kwon says quietly, for loss of better vocabulary, "hey."
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he makes room for him next to his bed.
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to the floor he says, "i just wanted to remember."
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kwonnie yah..
(kwon)
[doesn't answer]
(changmin)
i don't want to disturb you or anything.
(kwon)
[doesn't answer]
(changmin)
but i just wanted to make sure that you're okay.
(kwon)
i'm sad, but he must be sadder, right? so i'm okay. that means i'm okay, right?
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you don't have to be okay.
(kwon)
[doesn't answer]
(changmin)
it's all right to be sad.
(kwon)
i laughed yesterday. a friend said something funny on the phone, and i laughed.
(changmin)
it's all right to be happy, too. he wouldn't grudge us that.
(kwon)
but it feels wrong. i shouldn't be happy when he's hurting.
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[silence]
(changmin)
i think he would want us to be happy.
(kwon)
i...
[hesitates]
i want him to be happy.
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