Why does everything remind me of how it used to be, and how happy I used to be?
Why is so happy to stay happpy now?
why is it so hard not to think about the past?
i hate this.

I used to be sooo happy.
Why did it have to change?
Why can't I be happy now?
Why is this so shitty now?
I fucking hate it.
I need something to change.

i hate how I feel like no one gives a shit about me anymore ( Read more... )

fuck this

i just love how if i don't say anything to her, she won't talk to me anymore.
and i fuckin hate being home all the god damn time.
and this feeling of loneliness sucks too.

i hate feeling so lonely.
i really wish i had someone to help me through this.
i know josh has been hanging out with me a lot but he just distracts me from what i am feeling.
i am glad he does but i still wish i had someone.
damnit.

well i got my computer, so i am happy about that ( Read more... )

i still didn't really get to talk to her ( Read more... )

i hate feeling alone.
i really wish i had more friends to hang out with so I wouldn't have to be home all the fucking time.
and i hate missing her.
im still not used to not talking to her everyday.
its hard.
but i can deal with it.
i have to deal with it.

i just wish i was happier.
its so much harder to be happier without her in my life all the

I think I'm ok ( Read more... )