oh right. everything is beautimous. riiiiiiiiighhht..... *sigh*

1) what's wrong?
2) everything. nothing. panic.
3) drinking doesn't solve things: give me a bourbon on the rocks please.
4) throwing money away, throwing time away
5) where did I loose these things at? leave me alone I'm busy turning into a bat.

my veins are burning me out from the inside?
violently rebelling against this familiar sinking

today is one of those 'everything is soooo beautiful' days ( Read more... )

oh right. this thing. uuuuhhhhhh...
I'm back in sea-town. have been for a little bit now. the trip was good, didn't go to california. portland got a A +++ and I think everything is going to be ok, though it is the end of the world pretty much now. happy birthday everyone!

I am in portland with caitlin, staying at aubrey's place. it is good. more on this later I suppose.

and once again, I have relearned how to simply be, in awe of the beauty surrounding me and suffused with the magic of life. how wonderful it is to be back and alive! I hope all of you have had amazing soltices and full moons as well. everything about the past 24 hours has been perfect- a perfect sunset, visiting my friend's ghost in the lake, ( Read more... )

I dreamed silly meaningless things again about passing out in grocery stores, theft and soccer mom skips. I also dreamed that it was solstice and I was alone standing at the edge of a cliff wondering if I would fly if I could just gather up the courage to walk over the edge ( Read more... )

1. red wine & delicious foods
2. good music
3. good company (social experiment: evan + james + monica = ??)
4. good book
5. playing dress up
6. relaxin' all cool
7. soaking up sun
8. a phone call concerning a large shipment of magical edible treats

unfortunately, the end continues to be nigh and I am still broken

oh. and I watched blue velvet with iverson last night. that was a fucking fucked up movie. the obvious mockery of hollywood endings was probably 'quite good' but it was so distrubing that I was just glad it was over. fuck man. david lynch is scary. he's on my list of people not to meet.

blargh ( Read more... )