And death circles closer still...

[bouncyweee]

Apparently, my biological grandfather is dying of prostate cancer. My mother wants to go to Guatemala to pay her respects and say final words to him so in post-pater-death she won't suffocate with guilt. My mother and her father are not close by any means. He is a lecherous womanizer with many children from many women who did little to support my

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[jod3012]

so what does your grandmother think of all of this? you mention her far less often than your mother or great-grandmother.

[bouncyweee]

My grandmother does not play nearly as big a role in my life as my great-grandmother because the latter raised me and still lives with mi madre. In fact, Mom and Gramma (Ma-Marina) didn't even get close until maybe a decade ago because G-gramma (Ma-Maria) also raised my mother in Guatemala for a dozen years until they joined my grandmother in the United States. Marina is a more worldly woman, not as warm and involved as Maria is, and lives with her youngest son, Orlando, where she is raising his kids now.

I have a feeling once she hits her seventies, my children will have the same warm great-grandmother that I did. I just gotta wait a little while.

Although, from what my mother says, Ma-Marina understands my mother's need to go and supports it.