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I went to the w.e.b.n. fireworks on September 2nd. I had just gotten home from spending the night at my friend Nathan's house and i went straight to the fireworks. It was scorching hot (which was odd), but since i had a pink plaid miniskirt and bitch knee boots. Well, when we were heading down the enbankment to our usual place beside the riverbank i passed 2 kids. One was a tall brown headed boy dressed completely in black with a acousic guitar in his hand and a girl with a red spaghetti strap shirt on. They caught my attention as i passed them on the way down the hill but i didn't pay them any special attention.I had alot of mud on my boots so i went and washed them off in the river. The boy was sitting on a rock about 200 feet from where i was. i washed them off and messed around joking with corey and andrew, sticking out my tongue and wiggling it around making fun of andrew. About 20 mins later the boy still hadn't moved. He sat on the rock and out of the corner of my eye i could tell that he looked over occasionally at me making a jackass out of myself. I walked up to him and caught him by suprise. I asked him if he wanted to walk since i was alone and he was alone. we walked around and i met his parents. his parents were mad at him because the girl had gotten upset when she had seen him with me. so he went to find the girl. about 20 mins later i found the girl and harrison came later. we exchanged 411 at the end of the day and i went on my merry way.
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Harrison and i kept in touch, talking to each other everyday almost and i talked to kelsey (the girl) every once in a while. i went down For the four day halloween weekend and i met johnny (that's the next link). Harrison got really incredibly jealous...
HALLOWEEN WEEKEND
Friday night i went down to Lexington and around 10 pm i went to the stadium and listened to one of harrison's friends (luke) band play.
Saturday afternoon (around noon) i went to harrison's house where we hung out until around 3 when johnny showed up. harrison got incredibly pissed because johnny was hitting on me (playing with my feet, my hands and my hair). he eventually got over it and we ate dinner (crabs and steak). I got the living hell scared out of me by harrison's grandma who told me that "you don't represent womanhood." yay exactly what i need. after that we went to the rocky horror picture show. i got stoned out of my mind.
Sunday i showed up at harrison's around 6pm and we went trick or treating. i was drug around on a chain. really kinky. we went to kelsey's where harrison had fun painting me with uv paint. i spent the night there
Monday we went to harrison's and hung out doing basically nothing.
Tuesday i went to harrisons and hung out, there was some action in there but since i don't know who all is reading this thing i'm not gonna state any of it. I left around 10pm when paul came and picked me up.
This past weekend i went down to lexington again. On friday night we just ran around the mall and went to see "the grudge." It is the stupidest movie i've seen in my entire life. meowing asians? what the fuck was that director smoking? Saturday i went to his house around 3 and we had a replay of the halloween Tuesday, i got picked up by sammy around 2 and i left early sunday morning.
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I'm not sure what to think about him. He always tells me that i'm beautiful and i know that when i tell him that i love him i am being drug deeper and i'm going to get hurt. i know it in the back of my head that i am going to be hurt and it's going to be the most agonizing pain i'll ever go through. the funny thing is is that he is scared that he is going to lose me. him lose me? i think it is going to be the other way around. i'm going to lose him and it's going to kill me. it already hurts when i don't talk to him for a day, or don't get a letter, or don't see him. i miss his arms around me and his touch. guh. it's going to hurt.
Yep johnny he says he likes me but i don't think he does. he may like me because he thinks i am an easy lay (*ahem* which i am not) or because harrison does? i dunno but it's just odd. no two guts have liked me at the same time...ever.
Nathan and i have lost touch. i met him at the grant county fair and we had something. it was a little spark i guess but we did have something. then he stopped calling. and he got a girlfriend. then he moved from walton to gallatin county. he still says i am the most beautiful girl he'd seen in his life but he hated being alone. well i hate being alone too damn it.
Kelsey is an interesting girl. she's just kelsey. she did give harrison head for her birthday. yep i did type that right. she asked harrison on her birthday if she could give him head. and he let her. i was seriously pissed off but hey i can't be a hypocrite and tell him what he can and cannot do with his body. guh.
Pete is a sophomore at Carroll county. I went to an academic team match at carroll county last monday and his friend andrew came up to me and he said that i should talk to him. then pete came over. i seriously have to respect a guy that comes up and asks for a girls number. especially when that girl is me. i mean i'm not the prettiest or the smartest or the perkiest blonde bimbo. but he just comes right and asks me for my number. i gave it too him because i was pissed at harrison about the kelsey thing. i'd never tell it to his face that i was pissed but i was really mad that he let her do that. god maybe i'm being a control freak. pete is an extremely interesting guy. he has brown hair, plays the guitar, is on the academic team, he's catholic (but he accepts my religion so it's cool)he skateboards and he plays soccer. he's really really thin. i think i am gonna keep talking to him because he is really interesting and he's really good looking too
Yep. harrison called me yesterday and he's mad at me over the whole cutting thing. i'm trying to supress it and it hurts. i mean it really hurts. i can't believe i started doing it again. i thought i was almost all better but no. i fucked it all up when i got mad at myself and cut again. i didn't tell harrison why i cut but it was because of him. i cut because i felt bad from making him feel bad. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me anymore. everything is going to shit when i don't talk to him or see him or feel him. i feel so damn alone. i'm alone when i'm in a crowd , in the hallways, with my friends. except him. god i'm going to get hurt. i'm falling in love and i wish i weren't. i can feel it in the back of my mind that it's all going to go to hell and i won't be able to take it. guh.
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Harrison and i kept in touch, talking to each other everyday almost and i talked to kelsey (the girl) every once in a while. i went down For the four day halloween weekend and i met johnny (that's the next link). Harrison got really incredibly jealous...
HALLOWEEN WEEKEND
Friday night i went down to Lexington and around 10 pm i went to the stadium and listened to one of harrison's friends (luke) band play.
Saturday afternoon (around noon) i went to harrison's house where we hung out until around 3 when johnny showed up. harrison got incredibly pissed because johnny was hitting on me (playing with my feet, my hands and my hair). he eventually got over it and we ate dinner (crabs and steak). I got the living hell scared out of me by harrison's grandma who told me that "you don't represent womanhood." yay exactly what i need. after that we went to the rocky horror picture show. i got stoned out of my mind.
Sunday i showed up at harrison's around 6pm and we went trick or treating. i was drug around on a chain. really kinky. we went to kelsey's where harrison had fun painting me with uv paint. i spent the night there
Monday we went to harrison's and hung out doing basically nothing.
Tuesday i went to harrisons and hung out, there was some action in there but since i don't know who all is reading this thing i'm not gonna state any of it. I left around 10pm when paul came and picked me up.
This past weekend i went down to lexington again. On friday night we just ran around the mall and went to see "the grudge." It is the stupidest movie i've seen in my entire life. meowing asians? what the fuck was that director smoking? Saturday i went to his house around 3 and we had a replay of the halloween Tuesday, i got picked up by sammy around 2 and i left early sunday morning.
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I'm not sure what to think about him. He always tells me that i'm beautiful and i know that when i tell him that i love him i am being drug deeper and i'm going to get hurt. i know it in the back of my head that i am going to be hurt and it's going to be the most agonizing pain i'll ever go through. the funny thing is is that he is scared that he is going to lose me. him lose me? i think it is going to be the other way around. i'm going to lose him and it's going to kill me. it already hurts when i don't talk to him for a day, or don't get a letter, or don't see him. i miss his arms around me and his touch. guh. it's going to hurt.
Yep johnny he says he likes me but i don't think he does. he may like me because he thinks i am an easy lay (*ahem* which i am not) or because harrison does? i dunno but it's just odd. no two guts have liked me at the same time...ever.
Nathan and i have lost touch. i met him at the grant county fair and we had something. it was a little spark i guess but we did have something. then he stopped calling. and he got a girlfriend. then he moved from walton to gallatin county. he still says i am the most beautiful girl he'd seen in his life but he hated being alone. well i hate being alone too damn it.
Kelsey is an interesting girl. she's just kelsey. she did give harrison head for her birthday. yep i did type that right. she asked harrison on her birthday if she could give him head. and he let her. i was seriously pissed off but hey i can't be a hypocrite and tell him what he can and cannot do with his body. guh.
Pete is a sophomore at Carroll county. I went to an academic team match at carroll county last monday and his friend andrew came up to me and he said that i should talk to him. then pete came over. i seriously have to respect a guy that comes up and asks for a girls number. especially when that girl is me. i mean i'm not the prettiest or the smartest or the perkiest blonde bimbo. but he just comes right and asks me for my number. i gave it too him because i was pissed at harrison about the kelsey thing. i'd never tell it to his face that i was pissed but i was really mad that he let her do that. god maybe i'm being a control freak. pete is an extremely interesting guy. he has brown hair, plays the guitar, is on the academic team, he's catholic (but he accepts my religion so it's cool)he skateboards and he plays soccer. he's really really thin. i think i am gonna keep talking to him because he is really interesting and he's really good looking too
Yep. harrison called me yesterday and he's mad at me over the whole cutting thing. i'm trying to supress it and it hurts. i mean it really hurts. i can't believe i started doing it again. i thought i was almost all better but no. i fucked it all up when i got mad at myself and cut again. i didn't tell harrison why i cut but it was because of him. i cut because i felt bad from making him feel bad. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me anymore. everything is going to shit when i don't talk to him or see him or feel him. i feel so damn alone. i'm alone when i'm in a crowd , in the hallways, with my friends. except him. god i'm going to get hurt. i'm falling in love and i wish i weren't. i can feel it in the back of my mind that it's all going to go to hell and i won't be able to take it. guh.