so life is so so for me downsides and upsides. its not like i have cerebral palsy. i go to school now two days a week i still work at the bookstore, its easy and im friends with everyone there but i feel like its been long enough. im living the life of routine as usual and im stuck at it, school making things even more complicated. sometimes i ( Read more... )

damn its hard to keep away the decadence of the soul when decadence in your surroundings flourish. im sure some philospher pointed out that the mind is very liquid like, constantly flowing into different patterns, its a battle to keep it stable. I tried to read some philosophy earlier but i find myself not getting into it, especially if its shit ( Read more... )

living life factual and punctual for others gives you no room for glory. do you really fucking enjoy driving to work passing these landscapes desolate of life? the same landscapes that humans with no passion for nothing but money have put before us. i still feel hatred, i feel like smashing videogame playing impotent college brats, and lift them ( Read more... )

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"In itself, however, pleasure is neither moral nor immoral. It is only when the desire for pleasure conquers the desire for worthiness that a human being has fallen. " -Otto Weininger ( Read more... )

got really good lastnight. i dontknow why i even contemplated woman in the past fuckin brainwashed i just have a good time and not give a fuck anymore. i dont feel the extra need to impress or behave my finger is fucked up from not having a guitar pick and being wasted and not feeling or caring about pain. i havent talked to a lot of you ( Read more... )

how have things been going. the human mind changes the mood changes, just depends on what kind of perspective your mind gives you. some days im mopey and dont want to do anything, others im more active and want to get out there. yesterday was a mopey day for me, i had a day off, i was going to go to the foodnotbombs, but i woke up really late ( Read more... )

i been reading a book about german u-boats from ww2. and i really love it. but the thing is, it wont get my anywhere in life really, i might find inspiration, but learning the facts about these things is like smearing shit on your face for fun. if i watched cnn on the other hand...that might just get me somewhere, somewhere in society. if i ( Read more... )

fight apathy with pain. same fucking story but if you add pain to the sequence you get better results and more inspiration, accept pain with love, pain is something that always happens why not experience it to the fullest you dont survive this world being a pretty white boy if you want to coexist outside the floodgates your kept in. everyday we ( Read more... )

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