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I'm back from Kamloops. I didn't tell people I was going because it was a surprise for Heather. Anyway, I'm back and that entails more than one might expect.
Dean and Kesia accompanied me on the bus. They are two of my favorite Vancouver people. Brilliant. Also, two six hour bus rides gives you much time to contemplate. My life has been, well, basically not good for me; things must change. I'm so glad I made myself do this. Originally, this was a surprise gift to Heather, but I now realize that I'm surprised at how much I took away from it.
When Stephanie + Corey + Heather, my Kamloops favs, picked us up, they left their party, straight edge party. I felt so loved that they'd do that. I enjoyed not drinking. Actually, I simply enjoyed it being an amazing time and alcohol just not being part of it. As I walked in, I just assumed it was a party full of heterosexual guys, but Heather informed me an hour or two in, "He's gay, he's gay, he's bi and we're all sure he's queer." Anyway, that errupted into nonsense. "You're Michael? Oh, I've heard about you from Stephanie - we're best friends. Do you have a boyfriend?" Amusing 100%. Then we played spin the bottle while music + lights were still going. It's probably the most flustered I've been in a long time. The boy who I thought was the hottest told Heather that I was the best kisser and upon hearing that, I twirled my hair around my finger and adjusted my lack of underwear. Uhh basically. It just felt good to be desirable for once, ok.
I needed a weekend where I wasn't working or drinking. I just wanted to see good friends, read some fiction that I don't have to analyze and be away from the city. I got to do that. In conclusion, four days ago, I was so crazy-crazy. I hope I'm not crazy in four more days. Am I crazy right now? Absolutely not :) but...
November looks long and empty. I'm ready, I'm ready.
Dean and Kesia accompanied me on the bus. They are two of my favorite Vancouver people. Brilliant. Also, two six hour bus rides gives you much time to contemplate. My life has been, well, basically not good for me; things must change. I'm so glad I made myself do this. Originally, this was a surprise gift to Heather, but I now realize that I'm surprised at how much I took away from it.
When Stephanie + Corey + Heather, my Kamloops favs, picked us up, they left their party, straight edge party. I felt so loved that they'd do that. I enjoyed not drinking. Actually, I simply enjoyed it being an amazing time and alcohol just not being part of it. As I walked in, I just assumed it was a party full of heterosexual guys, but Heather informed me an hour or two in, "He's gay, he's gay, he's bi and we're all sure he's queer." Anyway, that errupted into nonsense. "You're Michael? Oh, I've heard about you from Stephanie - we're best friends. Do you have a boyfriend?" Amusing 100%. Then we played spin the bottle while music + lights were still going. It's probably the most flustered I've been in a long time. The boy who I thought was the hottest told Heather that I was the best kisser and upon hearing that, I twirled my hair around my finger and adjusted my lack of underwear. Uhh basically. It just felt good to be desirable for once, ok.
I needed a weekend where I wasn't working or drinking. I just wanted to see good friends, read some fiction that I don't have to analyze and be away from the city. I got to do that. In conclusion, four days ago, I was so crazy-crazy. I hope I'm not crazy in four more days. Am I crazy right now? Absolutely not :) but...
November looks long and empty. I'm ready, I'm ready.