Look at my life and tell me when did i die, 'cause i'm not alive...
1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again.
If you think it’s you, it isn’t.
1) Kid, You've got to be one of the coolest people I've ever met. And in all honesty, I'm not just saying that. You are so smart, and I love hanging out with you. You're prolly closer to me than I think only one or two other people have ever gotten to. And in like, 3 months? I think there's nothing more I can say than, you're so awesome. Love ya.
2) “yo yo yo, what up my homie g? this is a rap about my ***** P! not sure how, not sure why, but I want KENTUCKY FRIED CHICKEN! May I finish? As I was sayin my name is boyce. Some people call me the king of rejoice. Jk jk, im just kiddin my ho. I gotta fart, so pick up your cell phone. I think I’m crying, I think I’m dyeing, pick up the phone or else you best be sighing. I got the dope and I got the scoop, I taught you’re mama how to hool-a-hoop, none-the-less you smell kinda funky, kinda like a mix of an egg and a monkey, I could rhyme all day, or I could rhyme all nite. Hold on, I NEED A SPRITE! I’m coming to the end of the song, it makes me sad. Makes me wanan go to the mall and buy some plaid. But never-the-less I dress for the occasion. Don’t wanna be late and blow the reservation. So go on, drink up the cup… Word Up”
You’re too cool. I wish I could like, actually hang out with you tho. (the phone doesn’t really count)(and by now you prolly kno who I’m talking about.), but you’re funny, and talking to you at like 3 in the morning is pretty fun too. And I’m so sorry that I had to miss your party, I would’ve like died if I coulda come. I guess I’ll have to come back sumtime soon and have a “make-up party.” W00t! ttyl kiddo. CALL ME! (But not on my cell, as you know I cant find it >.<)
3) At first, I had no idea what I was doing, it was more of a “I’ll just go along with it, it wont go anywhere.” But now… it doesn’t feel like that. Before it felt like I was lying, but now, although I’m still utterly confused, I don’t think I’m lying when I say I love you. ‘Cause although it’s different than what I thought it was, it feels like… I do.
I wish I weren’t so confused. I need to be honest… I’m sorry… ♥
4) It feels good to tell you I don’t care. I used to think so much about you, and how much I wish it were back. But somewhere back there I started letting it go, and I’m glad. So I don’t have to think about how much I care so I wont notice how much it hurts. But sometimes, it feels like even tho everything’s changed, that maybe it could be the same. Because I miss the way you made me feel. Although now… now you’re like some other person. I don’t know you anymore, but I’m not sure if I want to. You went back to being the same old person you where before. I’m fine with being friends, or maybe even slightly less than that. But I just want to let you know that I let go, however long it took. I know what life after love feels like. It feels like this…
5) I’m glad I told you, ‘cause otherwise I would have missed everything! You’re a really cool person. I must say tho, sometimes it feels you get so mad at me so easy. I wish you wouldn’t. There’s not much I can do, but say that I like you a lot. I wish you hadn’t moved =’( good luck in you-know-where-you-are! Have fun! I hope you meet some great girl there!
6) I know I’ve said everything has changed, but I still consider you my friend. There’s been a lot that’s changed since way back when. Seeing you was awesome tho, I just wish we could keep in touch. We were best friends before and its just… faded, I wish it wouldn’t
7) Please stop telling me you love me. I’m sorry, but I just don’t think you do. You barley even know me, how can you love me already? Just because I treat you better than **** doesn’t mean that you love me. I still want to be friends, maybe even good ones, but please don’t love me. I just don’t think I can handle it right now
8) I really don’t know what to say to you. I got everything from you. Your mood swings, your temper problems, your loving. I hate your hypocrisy. It drives me up the walls. I hate how you can think that you can just blow up at people and think that it’s okay and act nice and all sweet 2 seconds later. There are times when I love being with you, and I’m fine. But then there are other that you bitch and yell (mainly at me) for almost doing nothing. I get so mad at you. I can barley even begin to describe it. All I can say is, I can’t wait to leave.
9) I really don’t know how to act around you. Sometimes I wish you better, but then again I’m so happy with the way you are. I don’t think you’ve taken the same picture twice and look the same. I think your biggest problem is you can never let things go. Not sure how to help you, but you need to get over.
And you need to forget Him. Them. Everyone. Things are over; it’s not the same, I don’t want to hear about it. I’m actually pretty annoyed with all your rants and junk about it. You’re obsessed…
10) I don’t want to love you, but I think I do. Everything about you is just... amazing. You’re funny, you’re (unbelievably) cute, you’re charming, and you’re hot. I liked you from the moment I saw you. I just can’t… get over it. I’m regretting asking you, and telling you for that matter. I want you so bad, I want you too bad >.<
Even tho I know I’ll never have you, it’s fun to dream.
"I worry, Wonder all the time
"why worry?"
it's killing me,
forget about it"