hey guys

[boysbetter]

in case you hadn't noticed, i don't update this anymore. this is probably for the better as i've discovered this is not the best way for me to better myself and is probably the worst form of therapy for me, which i guess in some way is why i started it, right? why else would i. my life is not interesting enough to merit otherwise, and this is

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Haha, now you make me feel shitty for still using this! Oh well, I can still spy on what you're listening to. . . psh!

[boysbetter]

it may just because my life is so bizarre. i have all these changes going on and yet feel so static. going back and reading some of my old entries, i really want to keep this thing forever-some of them are really funny! who knows, maybe when i get back to school i'll have great adventures to share.

i said probably to keep it open. i didn't mean to make you feel shitty.

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What I mean is that, I'm going to be 24 in a few months. And I thought I was going to grow up and stop needing to pour out my feelings on the Internet. But I'm still doing it. And I know it's not about to stop. A part of why I do it, is because I'm still not finding or having the sorts of relationships and friendships with people that I wish I had. And that's just depressing that my closest friends annoy me, back stab, talk shit and start drama. Some of them are completely based on alcohol/going out. And I won't even get into my luck with boys! It's just all so depressing to think that maybe it's not going to get any better!?

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Man, I sure did dump a bunch of shit on you.

No, I mean, I'm cool. I'm happy for the most part. I just still depend on this LJ shit too much.