Letters for the world
To whom, it may concern;
We send our deepest regrets along with the news. One Caspian Jones, has been added to the Ministry's Missing in Action List. Please understand our sincere sadness for your loss. As the next of kin, his medal is sent to you, enclosed with this post.
Sincerely,
M.G.M. Head of the DHDMLE
Attached is a small titantium pin in the shape of a star.
Kane,
I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have talked Mecca out of sending you. Watch over Liz, please. At least I am dead so I know you won’t try to kill me when you get a hold of me.
You were my brother. Saved my life on more than one occasion. One of the few holders to my heart. Sorry I won’t see the twins…but know I have already seen them.
Love,
Casey
Elle,
The dreaded L word. I offer you only what I can. I wasn’t perfect. I tried to be. Sorry. I left Kane behind. I couldn’t stand to leave you alone again. I couldn’t do it. So I convinced Mecca…Forgive me.
I am the daft idiot, you always said I was.
You will be a good mother for the twins. I am sorry I can’t be their godfather.
I love you, and Kane. Try to keep him sane. Try to not let him go self-destructive after this. He is going to need you now more than ever.
I’m sorry, and I love you.
~Renee`
Dearest Liz,
If you are reading this letter…then I failed. I couldn’t keep my promise this time. I couldn’t come home. I am sorry. There is so much yet for you to know. So much to tell you, yet I am not sure how to explain. Life is too short. I learned that a long time ago. It seems life is always ripping out the part you think you need most.
Listen to me, Princess. You don’t need me. You may think you do. You may think you will die without me. I am living…well I was living proof that you can survive the horrors, and sorrows of loss. Find something to live for. I know you already have.
Understand that Dex, is still human. He isn’t perfect. He doesn’t have all the answers. Work with him, through the new trials that will come up in your life. As this is his first love there maybe mistakes made. He may need handholding, as Lila did for me. Lead him, but don’t let him know you are.
Like I told you with Sebastien, there will always be a place for me in your heart. Accepting that I am gone…that is so weird to write. I will always be with you, Princess. Always.
I broke my promise, don’t forgive me for that. I said I would come back, and if you are reading this I didn’t. You have to go on. You can hate me for not coming back. You can curse the fake grave they gave me. You can scream. You can cry. Rip my collection to shreds. Whatever makes you feel better. But you have to go on. No cutting. No blood is to be shed on my account. Not one drop. Not one.
You might not want to believe me gone. Which is the reason behind this letter, if you are reading this…Then I have been declared legally dead. Caspian Renee` Jones…may he rest in peace is dead. But you are not. Blood still pumps through your veins. Your heart still beats. You can still feel the pain. And I bet you it hurts like hell. I know, I’ve been there, Princess.
Your entire world has been shattered. What you had is now gone like the sand from a shattered hour glass. The time we had, was never long enough, but that is the way that life works. People are placed into your life, for however short. They leave their mark, hopefully my mark was a good one.
I never truly understood why I was left behind. Why I survived it all. I have my suspicions though. I think you may have been the reason I was here as long as I was. If that is the case, the fact that I am gone proves that you no longer need me. Otherwise I would still be there. I would be walking in the door and pulling the letter from your fingers.
The harsh reality is I am not going to walk through the door. You looked, didn’t you? Princess, I’m not coming back. But I wanted this last chance to tell you, I loved you. Nothing will ever change that. You know I would never have done anything to hurt you. If I could have come back, I would of. I always believed I was a man of my word. Too bad I couldn’t keep it always.
It seems every time I find happiness it is shatter. At least know I am at peace now. No more curse. No more sorrow. It kills me to know that I will never see you finish you healing training. Never see your children. Never be able to walk you down the aisle. Well at least if I wasn’t already dead, it would kill me. But know this…I will be watching over you…so please don’t destroy my entire collection.
That was a joke, Liz. Laugh. Please. Life is too short to wallow in sorrow and pain forever. You have Dex. You will survive. I love you, Elizabeth…Jones.
I love you. And I am sorry.
Love always and forever,
Casey